Why??

I have been working out hardcore since the start of the semester. I lift on MWF and swim on TR. I can't tell, honestly. Apparently not many people can. I feel a little better, but not really. I have been trying to eat healthier, not much has changed physically. I wonder if sometimes I am genetically stuck with this body. I finally 100% cut sodas on Sunday. I also cut some other things that have been driving my life, but I won't go into that here. I hope cutting soda will help. I had already really cut down on them, but I suppose I needed to get rid of them completely. We'll see.

I don't understand why my resume doesn't get more hits. I honestly think it's because I don't have the skills I need in the workplace. Most companies want some sort of programming or design program exposure and we just don't have those here. Maybe I am being too selective. I have already turned down one offer and multiple other invitations to some companies. I just don't want to feel like I settled. I have an information session with Lockheed next week that I'm hopeful for. I would like to work for them in Camden; it would be cheap and fun. Also it would be a good foot in the door. I sent the main recruiter from there an email, so maybe that will help. I'm a hard worker, I just wish I could present that more on my resume.

I am not excited about spring break. I don't know why, I just don't look forward to it. It might have something to with the fact the my bank account is slowly dwindling, but it's not really. Speaking of money, I talked to my mom today about going on another foreign mission trip to Ukraine. She asked if Scott still had my extra money from last time and said she didn't want me to ask the same people for money. I asked everyone I knew, so I don't think asking other people is an option. God came through for me last time, I know he'll do the same if I end up going. I am just not sure what God wants for me right now. I have a meeting tomorrow about grad school, but I don't think He wants that for me. We'll see.

As you can tell, I'm sorta in a mood right now. I suppose everytime I post on here I am in some sort of mood. On postsecret there was a card that I continually find myself thinking about. It's the one about losing their dream home and saving their marriage. I wonder how ofter we put our possessions, our dreams, our hopes before others. I talked to Steven today about choosing money over my girlfriend Allison and going to the U of A instead of Texas A&M. I think about all the differences in my life if I would've gone there. Would I have an awesome job waiting for me? Would I still love her like I did? There's no way to ever know. I do know that I have some amazing friends here, I have experienced some amazing moments, dated some amazing people and still date an amazing girl. What if, though? What if?

I love you. Whoever you are that reads my posts. I think it's great you care enough about me to check this from time to time. I have a few people I don't really talk to enough and some have blogs I read. Others don't. Goodnight you.

You're such a joke

I have been at the University of Arkansas for four years now and every year I experience the same thing: the joke that is the intramural officiating. I’ve experienced it in flag football, dodgeball, softball and basketball. The problem extends from the bottom level of the officials to the top tier of the people who make rules and guidelines.
I’ll focus on flag football, as it is the most visible and probably the most ridiculous in my experiences. In flag football, which is so far from football it is not even funny, I have seen officials on opposite sides of the field call any combination of downs. In some close games I have witnessed, the refs made the difference when they took their time placing the ball or made a judgment call that even opposing teams agreed was incorrect. Over hearing some officials talk afterwards, they both agreed they’d rather be out drinking. That’s officiating, so I suppose I must just always get the guys who don’t care.
Then there’s the actual system itself. For co-ed, there must always be more females or equal amounts of both, although this rule is often overlooked. To keep things “fair” females get more points for touchdowns and the plays must alternate with girls either making a pass or a run for positive yards. Girls aren’t quite equal with guys when it comes to sports, so I can understand these rules. Even IMRS management doesn’t know why they have the rule. Another complaint is the ranking system. A team can lose all their games and yet a team that forfeits all their games is ranked higher.
I’m not saying scrap all the sports, but at least let’s make them a more official and a little less “backyard”…or publicize them as such.

That's what I have been working on, when not watching a movie for Russian or studying German or scanning material for Flight. Seriously, I watched a basketball game tonight and it was ridiculous. I thought I was going to jump onto the court and have a little chat with one of the refs. oh well. That little spill above is going into the traveler once I get some reviews and such.

Well that's really all I've got. I'm pretty busy, but I am doing some amazing time management and taking care of things. I do have my first string of big tests coming up, and that'll be the determining factor of how much management I am doing. We'll see. I'm a senior, I will have fun at some point.

Speaking of fun, spring break is on the way. Once I got fed up with waiting on responses, I went ahead and got a condo. It was a little more than expected, due to waiting so long, but it is going to be AWESOME. There's even rumor of free lodging, so that makes me super happy. Betcha didn't know that. We'll have to see, though. Gonna have to pull some strings.

Need for Speed

So it was wonderful today. The sun was shining and it was nice and warm. I worked on my car for about 2 hours and got a lot of stuff taken care of. Two things I didn't take care of were my remote entry and my seat belt, both are crappy. I suppose I will work on those again later. The reason I had so much time was because my sociology class was canceled due to the flu; everyone has it. Instead we have to watch some hour and a half long video. Should be exciting.

This semester isn't too bad. I should not have said throughout my years that I would take an essay over a test, because now I have at least three big essays to write. I say essays, but one is 5 pages, one is 10 and one is somewhere between 20 and 30. I love honors. I also love German. That class was my easiest last semester and it's my hardest this semester. My how the tables have turned. While I'm on the whole class thing, I should mention that we have a spot in Dr Roe's lab now to build and test our rocket motor. It's a nice place and will keep us warm. My honors research is coming along slowly, and by slowly I mean not at all. I can't quit nail down my thesis, but I need to do that soon. Perhaps this weekend it will happen, perhaps.