What if?

I had a dream a few night ago and some one told me to wait for them. That dream has rattled me to my core and forced me to question all sorts of stuff.

Sitting in high school graduation is always a sombering experience. I can't help but ask myself if I am in life where I want to be. I've lived my whole life knowing good and evil and working on a relationship with Christ to see that almost all the things I can do involve being unethical at some point. Where to now? I was always told I could be whatever I wanted to be and do what I wanted to do. But now I ask if I even know what I want to do. I'm clueless anymore.

I'm trying my best to be the best boyfriend ever but constantly find shortcomings. I don't give it 100% like I should. I need a renewing passion in life, relationships and Christ. V finds those faults yet I can't see them. I have to be better at everything. I'm slipping...

I have so much but so little to say. I just can't find a way to say it.

Gradutated

So I walked across the stage again today at the University of Arkansas. I did the same thing two years ago, minus two days. I had a much larger sense of satisfaction last time, but this time was nice because I did it even though I didn't have to do so. I did get excited about being back in Fayetteville, as usual, and the campus was gorgeous today with the weather being perfect.

Dad and I drove to Faytown together and dropped off the Pearl on the way there. I am trying a new mechanic and hope he's as good as people say; his shop was a mess and I always hate leaving my car at places to be worked on. Oh well, I suppose he can't jack it up too bad. Speaking of cars, I foresee a change in the next couple of months. I just have to find the right one first...

I'm going to Nevada for training next week. I am really excited because the conference looks like a real winner. I hope it is as good as it looks, because it takes on some long hours. We'll see, I suppose.