What!? I want to take the test today!

I had three tests today in my four classes and guess what? My LARC test got canceled due to the professor not showing up! I aced the Heat test, minus the 4th problem and I'm positive I knocked the comm test out.

So we watched this movie in Comm tonight about a mock prison some college professor put together at some university. It had to be canceled after 6 days because it got so bad. The guards basically broke the inmates down and the inmates started going crazy. This one guy started going crazy in less than 36 hours there. He was yelling and saying he didn't know what was going on and cussing and stuff. It was wild! Kinda makes me think about how people fill in roles in situations. I think about the 10 cow girl. I've told the story before, but basically this prince purchased this girl for like 3 cows and took her away to his castle. Well he came back to the town with the same girl and she looked a million times better. They asked who she was and he told her this was the girl who he bought for 3 cows. The townspeople replied that she should be sold for no less than 10 cows and how'd she do that. He replied that telling a girl how beautiful she is, causes her to actually become that beautiful. Okay I suck at telling stories, but I like it and it's right in my head. Makes me wish every girl and guy had some prince/princess to tell him/her how beautiful they were. The world would be so much better.

So I just got JT's new album and it ROCKS! It's so good for private dance parties. I love dancing, even with a gimp ankle. Speaking of ankle, everyone is making me go to the doctor. It's going to be a waste of time, seriously. It still hurts and it's swollen and bruised so I guess I should get it checked out. I've been using crutches all day and the ladies love em. Heheheh! My ankle does feel a little better, though.

Uh oh...I am nerd

So I will first start with some rants and then get into the good stuff. I woke up early this morning to go fix some breakfast. Well to start off, my locks on the car were frozen, so I had to climb in through the hatch. It was funny though, minus my poopy ankle and all. Second I get to Harps, grab some grub and my battery is dead. Leave it up to the one cold day where I need to be somewhere in a hurry and my car is dead. I call up Joe and he saves me, again. Well I get to V's to make some breakfast and, although some minor setbacks in the gravy, it turns out alright. Not bad at all. UGH! LET'S FILL BOTTLES WITH COMPRESSED AIR AND BLOW THEM UP!!!
So I end up late for class, but she was really surprised at me showing up to cook some breakfast and, like I mentioned, it turned out good.

So Valentine's Day is now over. It was a good one this year, did alot and gave a lot and made some people smile. Chelsea loved her flowers and Patsie loved the teddy bear and candy I gave her. So good times.

Now for the good stuff. Okay if you think I'm pretty cool, it would probably be best to stop reading now....I love my astronautics class. It's such a cool thing to know how to get a ship from Earth to Pluto in a set amount of time. Then you've got Machine Element Design. That class is a ton of work, with stuff due almost every meeting and lots of work, but it's really neat. We're getting into stuff now that is mostly left up to us. I mean we have a rotating drive shaft at ## amount of revolutions that has to have a factor of safety of 2.1 and last at least 10^6 cycles. That's all the requirements we have, the rest is chosen by us. There's basically an infinite number of solutions. Yeah it's tough and yeah it's intensive, but man it's life! Finally something I can see applied to real life situations. Anywho, that's enough of that.

I talked to yet another friend today who is studying abroad. I think it would be nice to go elsewhere and study on someone else's tab, but I've decided I'd rather finish up here and then go overseas on my own time and someone else's money. I am going to get a great job when I leave here and I'll go travel then. I don't know why this is still an issue, I've made my decision. It keeps coming back up, though. Have a good Thursday.

Addendum: I once went on this trail in the woods. It started out beautiful, although there were lots of rocks and rivers to cross. As I got further along, I started seeing Pine trees. I don't like pine trees at all. The further I got, the more trees I saw. I abandoned that path and chose another one soon after. The new path was much prettier and had a lot less rivers to cross. As I kept walking, I noticed a pine tree. It was just one, but it scared me. Should I continue on and hope the tree is only one or quit now before it turns into a grove? My nature says continue on, but my legs waver.

I'm getting sick. Food doesn't taste anymore and I'm not hungry to eat.

It's Valentine's Day

Man I know most people are going to hate today, and I've even got a Valentine and I hate today. It's so dumb because it does remind everyone that they're single. If you're in a good relationship, every day should be like today. I guess it just gives some people that little bit of extra power to do something sweet. I dunno, but it's kinda dumb.

Today went well. I have three tests this Monday and one tomorrow, but I'm not worried at all. I have not been just real studious this semester, but I feel like I've paid better attention and I can do fine on these tests.

My ankle was as sore as all get out today. I iced it last night and have been moving it around a lot to get it flexed some more and man it's hurting. Now time for scalding hot water. Poo! It's lukewarm at best. Oh well, I've got an early morning tomorrow...er...today.

I got a Texas Longhorn teddy bear (you rock btw), some monkey bread (dry, but oh so good), some candy from my mom (she is the best) and some amazing cookies from my 8 year old girlfriend at home. Wooo...I can eat one piece a day until Spring Break.

The University of Crap

I hate this University. I want some people from other Universities to message me and tell me if their school is as poopie as mine. I emailed the scholarship office 3 weeks ago and just now got a response and on top of that, he misspelled a ton of words. So I've been trying for weeks now to figure out if I can move off-campus, out of this crap hole, and yet I can't get any decent answers. It turns out if a university gives you money for all your hard work, they can dictate EXACTLY where you spend it. If I live on campus, I can get it applied to on campus living, but if I move off then forget it. If I would've moved off campus this semester I would've lost 500 to the school and had to fork over some for a meal plan. That's ridiculous! I have money going to nothing and yet I'll be forced to pay for something from this university. Gawd...

So for you people who tell me to stop whining because you don't have anything paid for, I'm sorry you have to read this stuff.

I've got to get some work done. I'll slay this monster when I have a little more time.

It's almost time....

I've slept all day and it's been great. Woke up, drove to church, ate in the quad, heated my foot, and took a nap. It was a nice 3 hour nap, which means I'll be up all night. Wooo! Maybe when Jordan's asleep, I can get work done. Doubt it. Church was kinda blah today. Nathan really got into the sermon, which was nice, but it was just a sermon about how we're all freed slaves. Made me feel kinda bad for the things I think and do, knowing that I'm doing it because God sent Jesus here for me. I don't know if I could sacrifice something so big for a bunch of loser people. I mean, I get hacked off about the bathroom here being dirty and want to punch someone in the face. Okay enough of this.

We've been griping about birds for a while. The congregate outside my window and chirp all day. So Jason came in yesterday, and said "man you guys weren't kidding. They are loud." He then yelled, "SHUT UP!!!" They got real quiet for about 10 minutes, but now they're back at it. heheh. Crazy birds. Having the time of their lives. They should've flown south, now we're going to have to kill them all.

Valentine's Day is quickly approaching. What to do, what to do. I always try to come up with all this razzle dazzle stuff to do, but I'm drawing blanks right now. I think I might try the whole random gifts in February approach. I think that's so much better than just some gifts all on one day. Now the question is...who should I gift? I think I might gift some people in other people's names. That could be fun eh? It's weird when, within the circle of friends, people have feelings for one another. Most of them are not hidden, but never are stated out loud. Some are pretty apparent and others a little more reserved. The sad thing is that I know most everyone's stories and most of the relationships aren't going to ever happen unless some one gives. This old couple I know told me about how he proposed to her like four times or something. Finally she said yes. Why did she say yes that fourth time? Did he put on a better show that day? It's something interesting to think about.

I don't know why I posted this. I guess I just wanted to keep you up to date on what is going down in my mind. I'll tell you some things that are going to happen in the future that I can't stop thinking about: moving into an apartment, going to Gulf Shores, racing Vanessa and Jordan and Chris Deal, getting a job this summer, and finally...Wednesday and the mass chaos associated with that lovely day of the year. Wooo. To all you singles out there, don't worry about it. I have been single on that day and most of the years taken and you always feel a something a little less than perfect. For me, I feel bad for the ppl who want so bad to have a Valentine that I can't buy stuff for and let them know I love them. So for those of you who are single, buy something for another person who's single. Get them a box of candy hearts or a hula hoop or a teddy bear and give them a huge hug and smile and say "you're always my Valentine." Or don't. It'll make you feel so good inside and that's what the day is really about.

Man I think I'm getting old

So ever since football in the snow, my knees have been shot. My left knee has this aching pain every time I straighten it and then bend it. My right knee is still a little messed up from flag football. Well last night I jumped up for a rebound and rolled my ankle 90 degrees. I landed on the outside of my ankle, hard. I heard it pop about four times and man it hurt. I think I blacked out for a like a half second and then I just crawled away. Man I felt like a pud. I was like, "yeah I'm fine, someone get me." I then hobbled over to the other court and just laid there. Man it hurt. I've rolled it pretty bad before, but man not this bad. It swelled to the size of a softball last night, but now it's a little smaller. The problem is that the knee with the ankle is shot too, so it's all uncomfortable. I don't want to go to the doctor, because all he'll do is tell me to stay off it and give me some noninflammatory pills. Ugh...I feel like a pansy, because I just want to lay around and be pampered. Freaking legs...at least I've got them, though eh?

Ball last night was fun, for the first game. We played on the open gyms this time, due to the hper's inability to think about athletics. The court we normally play on was being used for a 50's dance. A 50's DANCE!!! Oh man, I was mad, but I kept my cool. The guys we played over and over and over were pretty good, but I think we could've beat them. They really only had two players, but we never could get open. Those two guys stayed on Jordan and me, and so it basically shut me down. Jordan did better, but that was after I was out for the night. Ugh.

Man this week's going to be great. I've got a test on Thursday in MED, which I'm really worried about. I've got V-day on Wednesday, which is going to be super busy for me. I need to get out and get some people some stuff. It looks like my sis, little girlfriend Patsie and Jordan's sister all have gifts for me already. Man oh man. Fun stuff. Well I need to knock out some homework and some reading and maybe a little studying. I'll let you know how that goes.

Kara's gone home for the weekend. Booo. It guess it'll be just the guys this weekend. V's got tests to study for.

WEEKEND!!

It's FRIDAY! This week has flown by. I've been soooo busy. Nonstop action. I hope I can finish up my stuff soon and then relax/study all weekend. MED is this thursday and I'm scared. I've not been able to do a single problem on my own. This stuff is tough. I'm sure it'll turn out okay, but I don't want to be studying all Wednesday. I've got Bible study and dinner to cook and plans to scheme and lab. yummy.

Today was Drew's birthday. I feel like I barely know the guy since he hooked up with Janet. I mean, he skipped ski trip, he never plays ball or hangs out. Sadness...We' re going o Mexico Viejo for his birthday dinner tonight and then maybe ice skating, but I'd rather play ball, so I'll probably skip on the pansy stuff and go play some ball. Ice=cold=blah. Boarding in the snow is all that's worth my time. We'll see, maybe I'll do it to see if I can salvage this friendship. I sure hope so, we were best of buds and I considered him one of my best friends. We'd discuss romantic plans for our girlfriends on Vday or birthdays or Christmas. It was fun times. Talked about all sorts of stuff.

I'm tired. Brush teeth, contacts out, sleep. Hm....sleep.

BOOO!

I think Steven broke my major veins through my knee. Seriously, it hurts all the time. It's a weird pain; it mostly occurs when I stretch out my leg. I wake up stretching and prepare myself for the pain about 4 seconds later. It's a pain that creeps up my leg. Got a lot done today, despite being mad at the world for some reason. Nonstop action. Wooo. Spring break seems so close, but so far. I need some money, even when I'm loaded. I miss the beach and my skim board and chasing crabs with Krystal. Sad. Well sweet day to you.

Talk about a comeback

Today should've gone better. I mean I didn't sleep at all and I didn't want to go to class, but everything was thrown my way to make it better. I woke up with a phone call from a lovely friend, and I smelled her all day. Today should've gone better. My heat class was so funny as Joe accused the professor of hitting on his own sister and the professor was like "GEEEZ, who said that?" You had to be there. Then astro, which I LOVE, got out early. Then in my LARC the girls sitting around me looked extra cute and I jumped into a pile of snow. Today should've gone better. I worked out hardcore and napped and then went to communication. It was fun, but there's a new student who might just be a problem in the future. I did have some awesome self-mixed drink and a good sandwich. Today should've gone better.

I feel like poo. Utter and complete crap. My eyes burn, I want to yell at the idiot who keeps slamming his door and the loud ppl in the hallway yelling and laughing and being college students with a lame excuse for a major.

I drank quite a bit last night and it was good. I enjoyed letting loose with no one to impress or listen to about what tastes good with what wine or how awesome a certain drink is. It's too bad I couldn't really watch the game too well. Oh well, Colts won, game was slow, commercials worse.

I made a lot of jokes in class today. This girl in there was sick and I mentioned her in my list of bad experiences in a group. She thought it was funny. I then listen the answer manual as a great input to my group experience. Laugh out loud funny. Plus the crazy girl talking about her group getting high. Man oh man, funny stuff.

I need a cemented internship for the summer. I though Lockheed Martin, but I'm having doubts about that one. Camden is a waste of a town, much like Black Springs, I suppose. Maybe Boeing in St. Louis or Raytheon in Dtown would be nice. Actually working in CO would be awesome!

Do you ever want to just start cussing and enjoy being a bad mo-fo? I want to sometimes. This guy cut me off in the weight room and I wanted to tell him to move out the way and call him an effer. I didn't but I wanted to, which is just as bad I'm told.

Sorry I seem to post when I'm mad, sometimes getting it all off my chest makes me feel better. It also lets you see the other side of me. The side that doesn't care about being a gentleman or care about your feelings or anyone else's. If I can keep that side on here and not out there, I'll be doing good I think. V-day is in nine days! hehehe. V-day.

BTW, I think you're wonderful. Seriously I do. Most days you make my day, others not so much but you make me want to be better always. I am a Christian because of the love you show me and me wanting to show it back to you helps me stay one. Thank you. Don't let things pile up, well I'm trying not to. Keep smiling, oh I am. Most good people aren't worth dying for, maybe a great person would be worth dying for. You're better than great. I'd take it in the back, face, chest, leg, arm for you. Even if you make me mad sometimes or make me cry at others.

Jumpbo Shrimp at Red Lobster

Yum...So this past week has been awesome! I got out of classes on Thursday and Friday. I finished up all my homework Thursday, so now I'm just sitting around doing PS2 or Xbox 360 or whatever. Seriously, I spent five hours at Joe's yesterday playing Gears of War. Such a fun game, with so much blood and cussing and craziness. Jason and I whipped some tail. TAKE THAT YOU DUMB BATS! I do feel like all this is going to catch up with me, but I honestly think I will keep doing nothing. WOOOO! Okay maybe I'll read or something.

I think the senior walk here is retarded. I can't believe we use that as our recruiting thing. Honestly, whoever designed those commercials=dumb.

Kudos to the crew last night. I don't give you guys enough credit. Had I not been busy, I might would've walked out and let all of you know you caught me. I did laugh about it all night. You guys, you guys are crazy!

I had so much fun in the ice last night. I did a 180 in the parking lot at V's and then fishtailed twice on the roads with my e-brake. So much fun!

Well I'm going to look at my communications book and watch the Hogs play some ball. I hope they can beat those Wildcats of Kentucky.

I can't believe it

Well I got 5 secrets in my box today. One of which was something worth posting, although I ended up posting more. I can not believe people these days. I got one which said "I once donkey punched a sperm whale" and another said "boys have a penis, girls have a vagina". Seriously people, what are we 15 or something. I swear these days people are so stupid. I like to have fun just like every other person out there, but somethings are just so childish. I posted a flier for the stopping of quiet hours this Sunday for the Super Bowl. On the flier is a spot to write your name and for or against. It's been up since Monday and there are, tops, five signatures. SERIOUSLY PEOPLE! What is wrong with you? Is it too much to not get out a pen, write your name and then mark for or against. It took me longer to type those directions than it did for me to sign the sheet. I suppose if you're not going to be here, then don't sign, but this is still your dorm, you have an ability to decide. What can I say? I don't vote. I don't vote because I'm not well informed enough to know what to put. Maybe that's the problem here, people just don't know about this Super Bowl stuff and so they're not voting.

While I'm talking about the stupidity/laziness of people let's talk about the laundry room. Actually you know what? I'm a happy guy and pretty light hearted, so we won't talk about anymore nastiness today. Instead I will talk about how warm it is now that it's snowing! Yeah that's right! It is snowing here and it's wonderful. Right now there's just a light coating, but it'll grow, you watch.

I sat in my ME class today and kept smelling this kinda nasty, musty smell. It drove me nuts until I got out of there. Well I was sitting in another class and I smelled it again. I think it was me. I'm not sure; I shower and stuff all the time, but it has been a while since I washed my hat and jeans.

I'm super pumped about Bible Study tonight. We actually seem to be staying on track a little better this semester and we've got a much bigger group now. I hope we can finish Galatians and have some wonderful discussions about it. Fun stuff.

That's all for now. Thanks to Kara's blog for helping me realize the importance of paragraphs and breaks and such. Makes things much easier to read. I hope that if you can post a secret, you'll make an effort to swing by Gregson 2nd floor to post one. I've gotten two good ones so far.

Missing something

i don't know what it is, but here lately I've been feeling like something is missing. Not missing so much as there is something I really want to do and I can't find what it is. I've got class in 8 minutes and I feel like there is something I'm supposed to do or something I really want to do. I don't know what it is. It's driving me up a wall. The post secret project in the hallway has a few cards, but I can't tell if they're any good. Probably just someone putting some random comment into the box. I have noticed about half of my notecards gone, so maybe some one is doing something. Or maybe someone just wanted some free note cards. People these days.

Comm class last night was really fun. I laughed a lot because I see most of the gender things we talked about happening all the time. I kept thinking of how most of my girlfriends are more towards the masculine side of communications, but how I can see different aspects of the woman's side in each of them. It also explained a lot about various girls I've dated. It's kinda sad the lack of confidence women tend to have. There are quite a few out there who seem to be figuring it out though. Well I have five minutes to get to class, so I better go. I can barely keep my eyes open typing this, let alone listening to a lecture for 1.5 hours. FUN!

Besides the not knowing what I want, I'm feeling pretty good today. It's sunny and freezing, but it's sunny and that's more than I get most days. I almost typed that I wish I was on a snowboard in Colorado, but I think people need to be satisfied with where they are. I guess I can't talk though.

In the words of Kara...blah

So today started so good. I jumped the wall into my car, without ripping my super tight suit pants. I then picked up Steven, who was ready and waiting, another plus. Next we drove to Daylight Donuts, donuts are my weakness you see. I bought a dozen donut holes and all they had otherwise were some glazed donuts. So I asked if I could get some choco covered ones. The nice lady said she could make me some by dipping my glazed ones. She did that and I even got two with sprinkles. Things were going great. I showed up late to church and since I was 3 minutes late, there were no seats left with the RFCs. There never are unless you get there like 10 minutes before church. So I sat with this nice elderly couple. They were really nice and I felt bad because I can not remember their names. I even repeated it like 5 times and still no. Well church went okay, but after about 15 minutes I quit wanting to be there. I don't know why exactly, but I just don't care about going much anymore. I see most of the people I want to see out of church, so why should I go? The only people I know at that church are at Tuesday night devotional. Why do I go to church? Oh yeah, to hear a lesson. To hear someone else's interpretation of the Bible or an interpretation at all outside of Scott's.

I don't know why this stuff bothers me still. I honestly don't care that much, but then it's obvious I do care somewhat. So now my attitude is ruined for the day. And you know what is the worst? I don't care! I don't care if I piss off some people today or hurt some feelings today or tell people just how stupid they are. I cut off people driving today, I thought mean thoughts about some people in Harps and I don't care. Maybe this is the real Blair. Maybe deep down inside I'm not nice, I'm not generous, I'm surely not confident, I couldn't be polite, chivalry is dead, maybe I might just be imperfect. Or maybe I have shots of good in me, just shots. They're quick and last a little bit, but at the end of the night I've just got a head ache and a killer hangover. I don't know. I know that people not capable of being leaders or getting out and knowing people should not go on overseas mission trips. I know that doctors shouldn't get paid until I'm healthy again. I mean if I were to work someday and tell my boss to "try" this and see what happens, then I'd be fired when 100 people die. I would not pass go I would not collect 200 bucks. But I can go into a doctor, be told to try something, pay him and then go back in later to try something else and pay him again. Man that's the life.

I think I'm going to make out with some hott college babes over Spring Break. I think I might just whore it up for a bit. See what happens. Why not? I mean everyone else is doing it, why not me. I mean we use that game plan all the time. What's so wrong with doing what everyone else is doing. We all seem to do that in church.

You know what? This blog post probably doesn't make a bit of sense and I probably don't have any claims to anything I wrote. I don't care. I write the first things that come to mind. Hey guy who wants to move into an apartment by yourself because of other people doing things to bother you, this next little bit is for you: if you live your life just letting people do things you don't like then you're going to live a long, lame life. If, on the other hand, you can take note of those things they do and make sure you're not doing them to others and then, with oh so much love, tell that person what you don't like, you might just enjoy things. Live a little bit. People are out there who love you and care about you and although they might eat your special foods or drink your special drinks, don't let it eat you alive. I can tell you all about that and it's not fun at all. Let love in.

I'm sorry for hating you right now. I hate you so much because I love you still even when I know I shouldn't. I have so many reasons to love you and I can't seem to find the strength to admit that love is more than what I thought it was. Love is friendship, love is romance, love is sacrifice. Sacrifice like continuing to put your heart out there no matter how much it hurts. Like continuing to hold on despite the horrible things. I love you and I love you and I especially love you. I don't quite love you yet, but I'm learning. I don't hate you like you think I do. Thanks for reading, thanks for stopping by and thanks for laughing at my inability to tell you I'm going somewhere without giving away where exactly I'm going. I'm smiling now, thanks for that too.

Hey Seabass, you looked stunning today.

Google Earth

So now that I've got this massive processor of a computer, I decided it was time to get google earth. I've now had it for about 47 minutes and I just keep looking at the square of my house. It's kinda odd how little detail they have for 92 Eagle Rest. I mean I've got a pool visible from most satellite images and yet google earth only has my ponds. Maybe I'm supposed to pay some more money and get the better one, complete with images of small towns. Or maybe there's a small town add-on I need. Hm....

So Kara, being the wonderfully wacky and yet always knows what to say when she needs to say it and yet still manages to annoy me sometimes, brought me some food and drink tonight at the desk. I missed her, we didn't get to talk much at the lunch table and then I've been non stop all day. I went to class and then to a money seminar and then to lunch and then to my career coach and then to study and then to the lab to cut a wing and get let down when my plane wouldn't start and then back here to play PS2 and then to work and now I'm back. I've not gotten much done, despite the studying and desk shift. I need to become more productive I think. Or maybe not, I'm still sane and passing my classes.

Man I got on google earth and saw the awesome race track in Germany, the Nürburgring and I can't wait to get loaded, filthy, nauseatingly sick and take a wicked awesome car over there and burn the tires out from under it. It's going to be some craziness. Anywho, it even looks cool from space or near earth orbits or whatever. I could take it though. Oh man, I should check out the tracks in Italy. I've got to find that magazine with the coordinates. Hm....yummy. Well I think I should at least try to sleep now. Try being the key word.

I read in my communications book that the more you know someone the closer you sit to that person. It's a 4000 level class and I'm reading about that. Man oh man, this is going to be some uber fun stuff. (Sorry Germans for not using the umlauts. I don't know how to type those. Blame it on my computer.) Good night and in case I don't see you again, good morning, good afternoon and good evening.

you already are

I think I found my special spot today. I wasn't feeling alive at all and I found this one place I go to week after week and I feel alive. I feel alive because I am so open yet I can relate to so many of the things I see and people never know it. It's amazing how well these home made secrets convey the thoughts of the person. I like them. I like them alot.

I saw Megan today. Lately I could never remember why I ever dated her, but it's amazing how good she is at making me forget all the bad. I hated to see her because I knew it would happen. I fell for her again. We talked for a bit and she told me all her plans, which I honestly didn't care about because I'd only worry about her. I told her all my woes and such, as usual and she left. I don't know my stance on things. Of course I'm not going to hook back up with her, at least not until it turns out we are looking for the same things in a relationship. I just went above and beyond with her. I fought so many demons while I was with her. It's like those summer camps that suck-you get so close to those people. I'm still putting the pieces back together, but it'll be okay. I promise. Enough of this for a bit.

My lab TA is so crazy. He hassled this one guy all night about writing on the wrong side of the paper and then using a pencil and then making up numbers. It was really funny. It was burning up in there and I really didn't have a clue how to write up my lab notebook, but it was fun just laughing at the TA. Go Steve!

Man LARC 1003 is the most boring class ever! Brad told me the teacher is a nudist, so that makes things a little better, cause I just laugh imagining him running from a bear totally nude. Ouchie! Okay, it's not that bad a class, but I could design better. I know I could.

Bible study is such a great thing for me. I love planning stuff and then just rambling in our get togethers. It's great to see my best friends are also Christians. It's like the perks of RFCs plus some more. Good stuff. I can't wait to see what happens this semester. God is working and I can't wait to see what happens.

NERD ALERT! If you think I'm pretty cool and stuff, don't continue reading.

I'm really excited about the build/fly stuff this year. I'm charging my plane as we speak and I'm going to fire it up tomorrow. WOOO!! I built two wings but they both failed, so I've got to redo them. I also have to build a super awesome box for the plane. That'll be fun. Steven and Chris Deal and Aaron Schoolcraft are all dorking it up and working on this stuff. I also talked to a guy about interning at Porsche, BMW, and Toyota and like five guys in class perked up and were listening. We talked about how cool it'd be and all that stuff. I got a little giddy. Working for Porsche would be the coolest thing I could ever imagine. I'd make copies or get tea for the Germans, just to get a nice polo with the words "Porsche" on it. Man oh man. Enough of this, I'm getting all giddy again. Anywho sweet dreams or good morning, whichever. I'd rather be racing and running from cops on this nice PS2 game, but whatever. You people needed an update on my life I suppose.

Come back please...I miss you

I had an okay day. I stayed up late and slept late and the natural order of the universe was balanced. Too bad classes are coming up so soon. Ugh. I went to the lab today and had a good time chilling with Steve and Chinaman. It's so cool that he went there despite it being sorta, kinda, a little dangerous for Christians. Go Chris! Stay away from those non-dangerous places and hit the places where Christianity is something you work for, something you show with pride even though you could be killed for it. I wish I could do that.

Drew, I miss you. You were my first real friend in a long time. I could talk to you about my special Valentine's plans for Megan and we worked together to plan some really sweet stuff. You made me laugh and you moved really well for a big boy. Why aren't you still around? Why are you moving away from me? I think you and her a great together, but don't forget me. I know I didn't always think about you or any of you other people who read this, when I was with Megan. I tried. I always thought of you and most of the time brought her along with me to chill with all of you. Please bring her. Please come to the beach. I doubt you read this, but I miss you man. Best of luck with her.

Brings me to think of my problems with Megan a little more. I still don't think the whole ex-boyfriend thing was 100%, but now I see it wasn't so much jealousy or distrust, but it was her doing regardless of how I felt. Just like bringing him on ski trip right after we called it off, total disregard of my feelings. I'm healing fine. Better than expected actually. I'm not so bad at this game actually. The hunt wasn't exactly missed a lot because I constantly had to continue to prove myself to myself more than anyone. I had to try to get you to see things, so I'm not rusty at all. I never quit trying to win you over. I'm done with you now for a while, if not forever. Read this and know you lost a good one.

Moving on, for good I hope. I had a great time tonight. I went to Slim Chicken to meet up with the RFCs I don't have issues with and we had a good time. I didn't really get to talk to them much, but it was fun. I then slid across college and did some cool fishtailing/drifting/sliding/fun. It was soooo cool. I felt like time slowed for just a second and everything was so clear. Weird eh? Well it was a rush, nonetheless. Then we rented "Lucky Number Sleven" and watched it at V's house. First we played Dirty Minds, crazy cool game btw and then we watched the movie.

I like being the organizer. It's kinda hard sometimes, but seriously I like starting the show and letting the rest of the people keep it going. I swear I organized this year's ski trip and last and I also have been the one on the ball with spring break. It seems like I'm the one who makes the plans for the night and then everyone else makes them work. It makes me feel really special. I like it alot because I feel like people listen, but they don't make me make all the decisions. I do wish people would tell me how they really feel about some stuff. I think people, read Jordan, want to leave and get to bed much earlier sometimes but they don't tell me and I'm a sterling example of Newton's First Law-a body at rest stays at rest. I'm comfortable sitting at V's and sleeping in the seat I'm in. I need people to tell me, hey I'm ready to go. Just whisper it in my ear or something. Or for those people who entertain us, tell me it's time for me and the posse to leave.

Anywho, yeah I'm tired. I have some work to get done tomorrow and since I've been somewhat lazy all week, I'll be working quite a bit tomorrow. YAY! Well sweet dreams fellow peoples. BTW, Aeisha 1 Kara 0 ooooooh

I'm a rocket scientist

So in my awesome reading for Astronautics, I found this cool video. It's from the SOHO spacecraft and it's two comets colliding with the sun. It's from NASA's Jet Propulsion Lab. Just click the little line, I guess. Hm....

Choooo Choooo

Warning! This post is full of negative thoughts. I can't contain them anymore. They're there and I want everyone to hear them. They may not be logical, or smart or nice or pretty, but I want to make sure people know I see them and I'm deeply disturbed.

I don't know where to start. First and foremost, if you reply to this and tell me to pray about it, forget me ever taking your advice again. Prayer is a personal thing to pump yourself up. We don't need to pray, God knows what we need before we need it. We pray because we believe that the message is sent to someone who can do something. No one likes to complain to a secretary, she has no power. God does. We pray to let off steam, to vent to the one thing in the whole world that has power to change things. If I ask for your advice, tell me something with some substance. I've vented to God already about what I'm asking your advice regarding. Second, don't tell me to make my own decisions and do what I want. I will make my own decisions. These legs and this body only respond to me. I will consider other people. Other people are the reason we live. If you're living for yourself, I'm sorry. That's sad to me. Jesus didn't live for himself. He didn't go places to see them for himself, he went there to save people. He came here to save people.

People are such a great reason to live. I see all over the place, the old posters about 10 years from now no one will remember what you wore or where you were from or what you smelled like, people remember you for what you did. I will remember what you did and for that I'm very sorry. Because if you treated me like poo, I will remember it. I'll try to give you another chance, but no guarantees. I'm trying to be like Jesus, so maybe you'll catch me at my prime. If you've treated me like I deserve to be treated, like you'd give up anything for me. I love you. That's all I can return. I hope I did a good job of showing you that. If not, I'm still trying. I could list off all your names, but most of you don't read this and the few who do, know it already. I love you no matter what you did to me, although it's a pain I feel sometimes when I love you. It's like this pain I've got in my tailbone from football. It hurt for a long time, but I got over it. Sometimes, though, when I think about it too much or I hit it just right, the pain comes back. My love for some of you has a bruise on it. That bruise will heal, but it will always be a weak spot.

Finally my thoughts on today and my time here so far. I've enjoyed it all. My classes got tough last semester and I found out who wanted to be here with me. I found some friends I will never forget. When things got tough, they were here to hug me and love me and support me 100%. I'm going to leave this place sometime. I don't know where I'm going or what I'll do, but I know I can always count on those friends to be there when I need them. Since I've seen what they'll do when we're all here, I can have full trust they will handle my crisis in a good way in the future. Your friends can talk all the time about how they will help you, but when the times come if they're talking to you over the phone or something and not face to face, you never really know. I know, Roomie, lil sis, Steve, Pony express, Josephine, Jason, I know you guys are there for me. I know that my ME friends are the best I could ask for, even though Joe won't give me more answers and he fights me for the ladies and Steven is a bit lazy sometimes when I want to finish my work and he drives me so jealous of his random trivia bits.

Well I'm finished now. I've lost my steam. I could very easily get it back and the temptation to do so will not cease anytime soon, but I've spent enough time on those thoughts. More time than any guy should have to spend. I would like to thank the two wonderful ski instructors for this evening. You guys rock my socks off. Well actually I'm pretty sure they burst into flames, but thanks anyways. You were my total motivation here. Well I'd love to stay around, but some of us folks have to learn to drive those trains.

aw poop

Well today was my first string of classes. The first class started great. We moved rooms and still about 7 people ended up sitting on the floor. It was Machine Element Design class. It seems pretty fun, but I've forgotten a ton of stuff since MechEMat and I'm a bit scared. I did some "review" problems earlier and it took over an hour and I still have a ways to go. I guess I'm just out of sync or something. My second class went pretty good. We did have a quiz, that I bombed, but he drops a ton of grades. It's lab II with my adviser and he is a cool cat.

So housing is really making me mad and I think this is going to be the last semester I live on campus. They're requiring a 230$ prepayment which will only apply to spring semester. I'm not sure what I'm doing next year, but I don't think I will be here either fall or spring semester. I don't want to pay now if I'm not going to be here for the fall or if I will be here in fall and not spring. It's ridiculous! Stupid, absurd. I can go on and on. So I'm seriously doubting I recontract. I am going to talk to Jordan and see if he wants to move off campus and if our scholarships will pay for it. I'm not at all hurt to skip out on cafeteria food and community bathrooms. Not at ALL! I just don't know what I'm going to do right now and that is both exciting and scary. I think taking some time off to prolong the college experience would be good for me and fun to see a new batch of friends, but I don't know how long I want to do that. I'm afraid once I stop, it will be tough to start again. I guess if I'm doing engineering stuff, it'll be alright. I don't know though. Study abroad is an option in the fall with internships in the spring or I could go here again in the fall and study abroad in the spring or just study abroad in fall and come here in the spring. I don't know. I'd like to break the monotony of classes here, cause I'm already feeling burn out. I don't know. Any suggestions? Comments? Words on your experiences with housing, scholarships, study abroad, Mustain leaving the Razorbacks? It's all up in the air.

Home, home on the hill

Well I'm back and ready for action. I spent a nice chunk of change on books, but oh well. I guess it costs something to go to school. I'm glad to see all my friends again and I think how short our time left together is. We only have 1.5 years left. Maybe more if I do the whole study abroad/internship thing, but for most of these guys it's going to be over soon. I have wonderful friends, but they all know that so I won't go on about it.

I crawled into my car twice today. My keys don't work too well and the door was frozen pretty well solid, so I popped the hatch and climbed in. I swear, it's always something with that car. I've been saving up for some weather strips and now I'm going to have to, at the least, get a copy of the keys to get in. I've got to figure out what is wrong with that receiver and stuff. If it's not real girlfriends who let me down, it's my automobile girlfriend. I swear....ugh. I love her though, so I'll fix her up nicely. I've got the money now, for a limited time, no doubt, but it's there. Hm....
one key-$20
two weatherstrips-$160
one new exhaust strip-$50
one new transmitter and remote-$100
one bad, little car that always loves me-priceless
for somethings there are credit cards, for everything else there are sports cars