College is way different when you are working and doing it. It was actually pretty tough when I was there, but being there is soooo much better than where I am now. These online classes, as easy as they are, are killing me. I have a paper or a test every week and the papers are sooo hard to get motivated for since I care very little about management. I am writing a paper now that is supposed to be a proposal to a local service provider about how to increase profits. I'm typing it on a local "gym". I put that in quotes because the place is a joke. The gym here in the hotel is better than that one and we've only got four machines here.
Okay enough negativity. Houston is rocking my socks off. Obviously I am not truly experiencing the town since I don't commute in, but what I am experiencing is AWESOME. I've seen Z06s, M3s, Supras, and on and on. Plus the office is really nice and professional. Free snacks, drinks, etc for the class and the building is a nice six story glass officeplace. Love it! Traffic is annoying at times, but the chaos is predictable and I only drive about 2 miles to training. Oh yeah, I'm here for training. It's going really well. Our teacher seems real smart and she's young and trendy, which is a nice change. I sit next to this old guy names Craig and we have a lot of good laughs in class. He's way behind and so he always gives me a hard time about being so fast. It's funny.
Did I mention that I've eaten foreign food for almost every meal? I've had sushi twice, Thai food yesterday, Italian on Monday night and Fudruckers (which is foreign to S. Arkansas) on Monday for lunch. GREAT GREAT GREAT! Tomorrow I'll probably get some BBQ or maybe Mexican (on my hour lunch) and then some Bdubs for dinner!!!! WOOHOO!!! Did I mention I am loving being here? I guess I am glad I don't live here because I would be broke. I show up to work at 8:45 and leave a little after 5. It's wonderful!
Then the first person I get to see when I step foot in Arkansas is...Vanessa!!! All this positive thinking is making me giddy. Okay, time for a shower and then I'll get up at 7ish, eat, work out and drive into work. Good, good times.
Oh wait...my classes.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Catching up on posts
The irony is that I am here typing this. I hate jealousy. I fight it and keep it away and then one little slip up and it rears its head again. I will fight it. If it means I will be taken advantage of, then so be it. I would rather play naïve than to ever fall into the cycle of guessing and asking questions and being worried. It’s just not worth it with her.
This week has been wild. A guy came in from Dallas and I stayed busy working with him. I’ve also started classes from 3:30-5:30 every Tuesday and Thursday and that is taking a small amount of time out of my week. I have a paper due Friday at 8pm, a test due by Saturday at 1pm and I am at V’s house, which doesn’t have ready access to the internet. I stayed at work Thursday until 7:45 and got home at 9ish. I stayed up late studying for my test and then took it Friday morning. It was a breeze. I then worked on my paper while on the road to V’s house and I submitted it at her dad’s office. It sucked. I worked on it all week and just could not get anything running.
I’ve got so much going right now it almost makes me sick. V has really been the light in the tunnel for me and even she sometimes worries me. I feel almost pathetic that I rely so much on her being around to make me happy. That and geocaching, which here lately has been rather lame. I can’t believe I even put her and geocaching in the same sentence. She hates it because she doesn’t understand that is what keeps me sane in Camden, when I have time to drift into being insane.
I am in Houston all week for training on a subject I actually enjoy: engineering design with pro-e. Fun times. I plan on catching up in my classes and doing a little bit of caching in a few of the nearby parks. Mostly just enjoying not being in Camden at work. 6am start day is starting to get real, real old.
I am super pumped about this weekend with V. We’re at her parents’ house and she’s always a lot more energetic and happy when she is here. It’s worth making a serious effort to stay in Arkansas to get chances to bring her home. We shall see. This place also has a bad vibe due to some other stuff, but I am repressing that; it’s not worth worrying/thinking about. I’m with her and I’m happy.
EDIT: September 27th.
I made it through the weekend and had a good time. I got my class stuff taken care of first thing and then enjoyed just hanging out with V and her family. They are so much fun. Her dad tells the best stories ever and it's funny seeing her dad and mom playfully jab each other. Makes me laugh just thinking about it. We all went to a wedding that was like 2 hours away and I was laughing (inside most of the time) almost the whole way there and back. The wedding was really sad. The whole ceremony only last five minutes and it was not set up real well. I felt sorry for the bride and groom, but maybe that is what they wanted. Who knows? I know they had some good food at the reception. Chocolate covered strawberries...yum.
Had some good catfish later too. Her parents take me out to eat almost every time I see them and I feel bad sometimes. I think I will send them a thank you card and some gift cards. Note to self: don't forget to do that. Spreaking of food, her mom cooked me something for almost every meal and man it was goooooood home cooking. They always eat well when I am there.
Being in the town that was so infamous to me was a challenge from time to time. Every place we went I wondered who... I repressed some thoughts going through my head and feel better for not bringing them up. If you're reading this, I am sorry for bringing up the stuff that I did and I am doing all I can to not ask questions. I know you're now dedicated...or committed... (That was a crazy joke.) I struggled with this same stuff with Megan and I feel stronger for surviving that. I am going to fight myself all the way to the end, whichever end that is.
Because of love.
This week has been wild. A guy came in from Dallas and I stayed busy working with him. I’ve also started classes from 3:30-5:30 every Tuesday and Thursday and that is taking a small amount of time out of my week. I have a paper due Friday at 8pm, a test due by Saturday at 1pm and I am at V’s house, which doesn’t have ready access to the internet. I stayed at work Thursday until 7:45 and got home at 9ish. I stayed up late studying for my test and then took it Friday morning. It was a breeze. I then worked on my paper while on the road to V’s house and I submitted it at her dad’s office. It sucked. I worked on it all week and just could not get anything running.
I’ve got so much going right now it almost makes me sick. V has really been the light in the tunnel for me and even she sometimes worries me. I feel almost pathetic that I rely so much on her being around to make me happy. That and geocaching, which here lately has been rather lame. I can’t believe I even put her and geocaching in the same sentence. She hates it because she doesn’t understand that is what keeps me sane in Camden, when I have time to drift into being insane.
I am in Houston all week for training on a subject I actually enjoy: engineering design with pro-e. Fun times. I plan on catching up in my classes and doing a little bit of caching in a few of the nearby parks. Mostly just enjoying not being in Camden at work. 6am start day is starting to get real, real old.
I am super pumped about this weekend with V. We’re at her parents’ house and she’s always a lot more energetic and happy when she is here. It’s worth making a serious effort to stay in Arkansas to get chances to bring her home. We shall see. This place also has a bad vibe due to some other stuff, but I am repressing that; it’s not worth worrying/thinking about. I’m with her and I’m happy.
EDIT: September 27th.
I made it through the weekend and had a good time. I got my class stuff taken care of first thing and then enjoyed just hanging out with V and her family. They are so much fun. Her dad tells the best stories ever and it's funny seeing her dad and mom playfully jab each other. Makes me laugh just thinking about it. We all went to a wedding that was like 2 hours away and I was laughing (inside most of the time) almost the whole way there and back. The wedding was really sad. The whole ceremony only last five minutes and it was not set up real well. I felt sorry for the bride and groom, but maybe that is what they wanted. Who knows? I know they had some good food at the reception. Chocolate covered strawberries...yum.
Had some good catfish later too. Her parents take me out to eat almost every time I see them and I feel bad sometimes. I think I will send them a thank you card and some gift cards. Note to self: don't forget to do that. Spreaking of food, her mom cooked me something for almost every meal and man it was goooooood home cooking. They always eat well when I am there.
Being in the town that was so infamous to me was a challenge from time to time. Every place we went I wondered who... I repressed some thoughts going through my head and feel better for not bringing them up. If you're reading this, I am sorry for bringing up the stuff that I did and I am doing all I can to not ask questions. I know you're now dedicated...or committed... (That was a crazy joke.) I struggled with this same stuff with Megan and I feel stronger for surviving that. I am going to fight myself all the way to the end, whichever end that is.
Because of love.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad...
Where were you when everything was falling apart?
Last Sunday, the 6th of September, at around 7pm. Enough said here. It was a hard time for me as the car I had picked out on the lot and saved all my money for was already sold when I got there.
Postsecrets still keep me thinking. We have so many secrets we can't even look at them all. So many, too many. Open up, we all have them. That is the beauty of the site; it makes us realize that we all have secrets and we are not alone with our thoughts. Many secrets we have that we don't even know are there. They slowly consume us.
I'm sorry if my post doesn't make much sense. I thought about just typing with a starting point and seeing where this blog goes. My life is crazy right now; I'm in Dallas at the end of the week. Huntsville, I hope, next week and Phoenix the next. In October I am driving to Nashville to see a concert and maybe a few Corvettes. I'll be 24; really an uneventful birthday to celebrate. That's about it. My whole room mate situation isn't too bad. He's relatively clean and the extra money each month helps a lot. This month I should finish up paying for my surgery and all that jazz. That will be a nice additional $300 a month or so. Good times. Classes are alright; I have about four weeks left in this semester and then I'll be down to four classes. Aced a paper last week that I found rather unimpressive; I hope I'm not lowering my standards to the point that engineering is going to kick my butt. We'll see I suppose.
Moving on...
Last Sunday, the 6th of September, at around 7pm. Enough said here. It was a hard time for me as the car I had picked out on the lot and saved all my money for was already sold when I got there.
Postsecrets still keep me thinking. We have so many secrets we can't even look at them all. So many, too many. Open up, we all have them. That is the beauty of the site; it makes us realize that we all have secrets and we are not alone with our thoughts. Many secrets we have that we don't even know are there. They slowly consume us.
I'm sorry if my post doesn't make much sense. I thought about just typing with a starting point and seeing where this blog goes. My life is crazy right now; I'm in Dallas at the end of the week. Huntsville, I hope, next week and Phoenix the next. In October I am driving to Nashville to see a concert and maybe a few Corvettes. I'll be 24; really an uneventful birthday to celebrate. That's about it. My whole room mate situation isn't too bad. He's relatively clean and the extra money each month helps a lot. This month I should finish up paying for my surgery and all that jazz. That will be a nice additional $300 a month or so. Good times. Classes are alright; I have about four weeks left in this semester and then I'll be down to four classes. Aced a paper last week that I found rather unimpressive; I hope I'm not lowering my standards to the point that engineering is going to kick my butt. We'll see I suppose.
Moving on...
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I don't have time
I really don't have time to post, but since I need a shower and Chuck is in the bathroom, I will post an update on my life.
Work is going okay. I got in a little trouble for stating my opinion on a few things and standing up to some norms that are needing to be updated. It was not anything real serious, but enough to get to me. It's funny because I was slapped on the wrist for "having a problem with authority" which is funny because none of my managers, leads or co-workers have ever lead on to such a claim. Whatever; I know who it is saying these things and this group is very, very powerful so I will have to be careful.
Enough about that. I got assigned to a new special project, officially. I had been doing a lot of other work before but now I am really crazy busy. The good part is that I don't have to work on the production floor as much, which makes me happy. I spend quite a bit more time communicating with some pretty high up managers and today I even got to present some of my work to a director from Dallas. Woohoo! All my project work has been on paper until today; I got to see my canvas today and I will be getting to work really, really hard soon. That means, however, that I had to sacrifice my Boston trip. I am working on a trip to Phoenix now, but that is looking pretty remote too. As a last resort, I may be in Texas some where (probably Temple). Texas as a last resort, that's pretty good.
I am still trying to decide what my problem is. I just feel like this isn't the place for me, but I worry I might just always think the grass is greener on the other side and never find that grass. Most people who work here seem to be discontent, but no one ever does anything. I have one friend who is quite smart and he has worked at a few places and he loves it here. I am still trying to figure out what he loves- the company or the plant.
But anywho, I have really been looking at my options lately and I just don't know what I am going to do. I have talked to most of close family and some close friends at work and they seem to be split. I know one thing: I dislike very heavily Camden. However, there are some good opportunities here with people I don't want to hack off by going back to school. I can't really go to Dallas because then my relationship with V will really suffer (1.75 hours is too far, let alone 5). She's one of the few things I have left that can really make me smile.
Work is going okay. I got in a little trouble for stating my opinion on a few things and standing up to some norms that are needing to be updated. It was not anything real serious, but enough to get to me. It's funny because I was slapped on the wrist for "having a problem with authority" which is funny because none of my managers, leads or co-workers have ever lead on to such a claim. Whatever; I know who it is saying these things and this group is very, very powerful so I will have to be careful.
Enough about that. I got assigned to a new special project, officially. I had been doing a lot of other work before but now I am really crazy busy. The good part is that I don't have to work on the production floor as much, which makes me happy. I spend quite a bit more time communicating with some pretty high up managers and today I even got to present some of my work to a director from Dallas. Woohoo! All my project work has been on paper until today; I got to see my canvas today and I will be getting to work really, really hard soon. That means, however, that I had to sacrifice my Boston trip. I am working on a trip to Phoenix now, but that is looking pretty remote too. As a last resort, I may be in Texas some where (probably Temple). Texas as a last resort, that's pretty good.
I am still trying to decide what my problem is. I just feel like this isn't the place for me, but I worry I might just always think the grass is greener on the other side and never find that grass. Most people who work here seem to be discontent, but no one ever does anything. I have one friend who is quite smart and he has worked at a few places and he loves it here. I am still trying to figure out what he loves- the company or the plant.
But anywho, I have really been looking at my options lately and I just don't know what I am going to do. I have talked to most of close family and some close friends at work and they seem to be split. I know one thing: I dislike very heavily Camden. However, there are some good opportunities here with people I don't want to hack off by going back to school. I can't really go to Dallas because then my relationship with V will really suffer (1.75 hours is too far, let alone 5). She's one of the few things I have left that can really make me smile.
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