I have four weeks of working here left! The last two weeks of the year (next two weeks) they are forcing us to either work early (5am) or use vacation. They just love driving the nail into the coffin for me. I can't believe the junk here. I really hope that Dallas is better. I'm worried that work won't be, but I know that the town will be better. It is worth the trade.
I have my kitchen and bedroom left to pack and then I am done! I'm almost to the point I am just throwing stuff in a box. It's funny how we have those little nooks where we store junk. I'm going through and throwing out a lot. I have so much left to do here, I feel. Some guys are working on the yard this week, so I will put it on the market to sell next week. I'm super pumped about that.
My UTA class is almost over. I have one homework assignment due tomorrow at noon and then the final. I hope to get at least a B. My application to Georgia Tech was rejected due to no background in Aerospace Engineering. Ugh...I was really banking on that coming through for me. I can't do two more live classes that I skip at UTA. It's killing me. I'm not sure my next move; I just can't believe I didn't get accepted.
Great way to end a piss poor day.
Wednesday, December 07, 2011
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Happy Turkey Day!!
I realize I'm a little late posting for Thanksgiving, but I was busy doing nothing (and loving it). I did go to the last (for at least the time being) Texas vs Texas A&M game. It was a blast and the place was packed completely full. It came down to a last second field goal for Texas to pull off the win. I wore my Arkansas shirt and really didn't cheer for either team much. I just applauded good plays.
So my professor finally mailed me my homework and tests from class. I now have something to study (although I didn't do too hot). I figured my grade in there now to be a low B, but that's a real limited grade, so I doubt it's that good. I really need to do well on the final, but this whole class has been a nightmare. It's soooo hard to teach yourself Statics. I've spent hours at a time trying to do homework and making little to no progress. I'm really worried that I might get a C and get kicked out of the program, or maybe have to pay back the money for the class. I can deal with the money thing, but since I am planning to transfer to Georgia Tech, I really can't handle a C. I need a B; that's all I ask for.
In other news, the house is remodeled. I've been packing up stuff and I'm down to the laundry room (a complete mess), bedroom closet and the kitchen. Not too shabby. I already offloaded all my furniture (except couches), so that is nice. I plan to put it on the market soon. I just have to clean it up enough to take good pictures. That'll be the challenge.
Wish me luck, say a prayer for me, whatever you need to do. =)
So my professor finally mailed me my homework and tests from class. I now have something to study (although I didn't do too hot). I figured my grade in there now to be a low B, but that's a real limited grade, so I doubt it's that good. I really need to do well on the final, but this whole class has been a nightmare. It's soooo hard to teach yourself Statics. I've spent hours at a time trying to do homework and making little to no progress. I'm really worried that I might get a C and get kicked out of the program, or maybe have to pay back the money for the class. I can deal with the money thing, but since I am planning to transfer to Georgia Tech, I really can't handle a C. I need a B; that's all I ask for.
In other news, the house is remodeled. I've been packing up stuff and I'm down to the laundry room (a complete mess), bedroom closet and the kitchen. Not too shabby. I already offloaded all my furniture (except couches), so that is nice. I plan to put it on the market soon. I just have to clean it up enough to take good pictures. That'll be the challenge.
Wish me luck, say a prayer for me, whatever you need to do. =)
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Back from the big D
Wow! That is really all I can about last weekend. I had to get out of town and so I went to Dallas for a house hunting trip. Landon and Ryan (two coworkers) decided to come as well and we headed out right after work on Thursday. We met up with Landon's fiance at the Flying Saucer just east of Dallas. We grabbed some drinks (we had stopped in Texarkana for Chik-fil-e earlier) and Landon went off with his lady. Ryan and I staggered (from being tired, not from drinking) to the hotel in Grand Prairie. We got up at a reasonable hour Friday morning and got picked up by a local housing agent. She showed us around town and I have a pretty good idea where I want to live now. I think I'll shoot for the area around Lake Joe Pool.
Anywho, we did that for a few hours and then went back to the hotel so Ryan could order some tires for his car. We grabbed lunch at Krystal (amazing) and went to grab some State Fair Tickets from Brian Oney. We then headed to the state fair where we started with a test drive of a few GM cars. I drove the Sonic and then rode with Ryan in the convertible RS Camaro. Lame. We checked out some booths and then headed to the car shows. We saw some great cars and I got the scoop on the FSR from Scion. It is a 2.0L RWD "sports car" that is going to be under $25k. I am excited and hope it turns out as awesome as the picture I saw (I am told it is 90% of that picture). We saw some sick tuned GTRs with over 1000HP, a ZR1, a CTS-V, the Z07 Stingray concept and the ZL1. All of them (except the Camaro) were awesome. The 'vette had a great metallic dark silver paint job. I had to drag Ryan out of the Caddy. He's such an old man. Landon met up with us and then we headed to the food. We tried fried bubblegum (pink marshmallows), fried pineapple upside down cake, fried ice cream, fried salsa and some sausage. It was a good time. The fried ice cream was AMAZING! We headed to Grand Prairie, with Landon tagging along.
As we headed out, Landon realized that he left his stuff in his fiance's car. We managed to get out of the crazy fair traffic and grabbed his stuff. We almost died a few times, but luckily the Hummer handled it all really well. We saw an old Mercedes almost t-bone another car. We were on a two way road and this guy flies up besides us to run a stop sign. There was a car coming perpendicular to the road to turn left. It was crazy, but they both survived. We headed back to the hotel, changed clothes and went to a nearby bar to meet a friend of mine from school (Trip). We played darts until 2 or so and then headed back to the hotel.
Saturday we got up and headed to an Irish Pub for breakfast. We ate a great meal and watched some soccer. After that, we headed to a car show at the Ducati dealership. There were a ton of cars, but close to half were Mustangs. Boring. However, there were a few Ariel Atoms, two Ford GTs (one was a Hennessey GT850), a Lambo and lots of bikes. Ryan and I entered a contest and Ryan walked away with $110. He then donated it back to the charity and moved on. What a guy! We quickly headed to Target to get a gift for Tim (our coworker who was getting married in Tyler later that day). We ran to Landon's fiance's apartment, changed and headed to Tim's. We stopped for Sonic near the wedding and then made it into the ceremony. The wedding was good and Tim seemed really happy to see us. We dropped off Landon at the apartment and checked into our Fort Worth hotel.
Sunday I got up and worked on homework. I really wanted to attend a church in the area, but I got up late and worked on homework. I still feel guilty. After a few hours of homework, Ryan and I went to eat at the stockyards and then headed down to see the cattle drive. We met up with Anna and Landon at Cabelas and then Jonnie P showed up. We chilled there until they kicked us out and then we headed to downtown Fort Worth. Landon and Anna checked into the same hotel we were in and then we headed to the Water Gardens. Everyone was impressed and I breathed a sigh of relief (I was concerned they wouldn't like it). Jon then bailed on us and dropped us off downtown. We checked out the Reatta, which is a sweet rooftop bar and grill. After that, we headed to the Flying Saucer, where we grabbed a bite. Then we headed to the Fox and the House to watch some sports (not much was on anymore) and we hung out until 2 or so.
Monday morning, we got up early to pack up and head to the Lockheed Martin plant in Fort Worth. We got a sweet tour of the production line, but we all agreed we would have liked to see more. We ate lunch there at the awesome cafe and then headed to Grand Prairie. We got a few more tours there and I met with my future manager before we headed out of town. It was right around 5:15 but we hit the HOV lane and flew through town. To celebrate our ease of getting out of town, we stopped at the same Flying Saucer we visited Thursday night. It happened to be $3 pint night, so the guys had a few and I drove them back. We ended up in town around 12:15 on Tuesday morning. We hit the sack and then headed to work early the next morning.
All in all, it was a sweet weekend. I feel much better about moving there and finding a place to stay. I found a great area of town, but I have to make sure it is something I am really going to like.
Anywho, we did that for a few hours and then went back to the hotel so Ryan could order some tires for his car. We grabbed lunch at Krystal (amazing) and went to grab some State Fair Tickets from Brian Oney. We then headed to the state fair where we started with a test drive of a few GM cars. I drove the Sonic and then rode with Ryan in the convertible RS Camaro. Lame. We checked out some booths and then headed to the car shows. We saw some great cars and I got the scoop on the FSR from Scion. It is a 2.0L RWD "sports car" that is going to be under $25k. I am excited and hope it turns out as awesome as the picture I saw (I am told it is 90% of that picture). We saw some sick tuned GTRs with over 1000HP, a ZR1, a CTS-V, the Z07 Stingray concept and the ZL1. All of them (except the Camaro) were awesome. The 'vette had a great metallic dark silver paint job. I had to drag Ryan out of the Caddy. He's such an old man. Landon met up with us and then we headed to the food. We tried fried bubblegum (pink marshmallows), fried pineapple upside down cake, fried ice cream, fried salsa and some sausage. It was a good time. The fried ice cream was AMAZING! We headed to Grand Prairie, with Landon tagging along.
As we headed out, Landon realized that he left his stuff in his fiance's car. We managed to get out of the crazy fair traffic and grabbed his stuff. We almost died a few times, but luckily the Hummer handled it all really well. We saw an old Mercedes almost t-bone another car. We were on a two way road and this guy flies up besides us to run a stop sign. There was a car coming perpendicular to the road to turn left. It was crazy, but they both survived. We headed back to the hotel, changed clothes and went to a nearby bar to meet a friend of mine from school (Trip). We played darts until 2 or so and then headed back to the hotel.
Saturday we got up and headed to an Irish Pub for breakfast. We ate a great meal and watched some soccer. After that, we headed to a car show at the Ducati dealership. There were a ton of cars, but close to half were Mustangs. Boring. However, there were a few Ariel Atoms, two Ford GTs (one was a Hennessey GT850), a Lambo and lots of bikes. Ryan and I entered a contest and Ryan walked away with $110. He then donated it back to the charity and moved on. What a guy! We quickly headed to Target to get a gift for Tim (our coworker who was getting married in Tyler later that day). We ran to Landon's fiance's apartment, changed and headed to Tim's. We stopped for Sonic near the wedding and then made it into the ceremony. The wedding was good and Tim seemed really happy to see us. We dropped off Landon at the apartment and checked into our Fort Worth hotel.
Sunday I got up and worked on homework. I really wanted to attend a church in the area, but I got up late and worked on homework. I still feel guilty. After a few hours of homework, Ryan and I went to eat at the stockyards and then headed down to see the cattle drive. We met up with Anna and Landon at Cabelas and then Jonnie P showed up. We chilled there until they kicked us out and then we headed to downtown Fort Worth. Landon and Anna checked into the same hotel we were in and then we headed to the Water Gardens. Everyone was impressed and I breathed a sigh of relief (I was concerned they wouldn't like it). Jon then bailed on us and dropped us off downtown. We checked out the Reatta, which is a sweet rooftop bar and grill. After that, we headed to the Flying Saucer, where we grabbed a bite. Then we headed to the Fox and the House to watch some sports (not much was on anymore) and we hung out until 2 or so.
Monday morning, we got up early to pack up and head to the Lockheed Martin plant in Fort Worth. We got a sweet tour of the production line, but we all agreed we would have liked to see more. We ate lunch there at the awesome cafe and then headed to Grand Prairie. We got a few more tours there and I met with my future manager before we headed out of town. It was right around 5:15 but we hit the HOV lane and flew through town. To celebrate our ease of getting out of town, we stopped at the same Flying Saucer we visited Thursday night. It happened to be $3 pint night, so the guys had a few and I drove them back. We ended up in town around 12:15 on Tuesday morning. We hit the sack and then headed to work early the next morning.
All in all, it was a sweet weekend. I feel much better about moving there and finding a place to stay. I found a great area of town, but I have to make sure it is something I am really going to like.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
LDC1...complete
I spent all last week in Lansdowne, VA hanging out with what Lockheed Martin deems some of the best talent in the company. I was there with operations, engineers, human resources, communications, and finance folks. It was a great time. We had big shot speakers, very informative classes and some great team building games. The days were super long, but I enjoyed being with all the crew so much. I finally got to meet the team I have in Dallas and now I am even more excited about getting out there.
All in all, the conference was a much needed boost. I feel much more motivated for work now and hope I can apply some of what I learned at work.
On Friday, after I dropped off the Dallas team, I drove in to DC to meet Aaron Schoolcraft, an old friend from college. He is doing great and looks the same as always. We laughed a ton and explored many of the sights there in town. While at the Vietnam memorial, we got hit with a thunderstorm and ended up getting soaked when it poured for about 45 minutes. We looked everywhere for a place to get some cover, but never could find any. We ended up ditching our plans and just got some to eat at Qudoba (which is where we used to eat in college). It was still a great time, even though we got soaked and missed many of the sights.
The church here is starting to break me down. I typically go to church for a chance to be rejuvenated, but lately I just haven't enjoyed it as much. We just can't seem to get any progressive movements going. It seems we keep covering the same material and the songs are never newer than 1950. It drags me down, big time. I'm going to keep sucking it up, but I really need to get out of here.
Until then, I'm going hardcore into remodeling this house. I have just a few things left to do inside and then I am going to start looking at the exterior. I hope I can make a little money off this place.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Stir Crazy
This might be my most negative post to date, so prepare yourself.
I'm going stir crazy. This is probably the first weekend I have had absolutely nothing to do. Last weekend I went to LR on Friday, had a cook out on Saturday and then went stir crazy on Sunday (so I went mountainbiking when it was 103 outside). I started this weekend by biking on Friday morning (45 minute drive). I had a great time hanging out with a good Christian friend of mine and then grabbed some lunch with some of his church buddies. It was a lot of fun. Last night, I drove to Eldo (45 minutes or so) and met up with some geocaching buddies to discuss an event we are doing in August. I went to Burger King and their a/c was broken, they were out of ice and their drink machine was missing half of the flavors. That started my downward spiral. I then went out geocaching with a friend and decided it was too hot and humid so we went to the downtown square to hit up the night life. We checked out this quaint little bar and then realized that everyone in Eldo leaves town on the weekends. The bar was empty and other two bars were mostly dead too...on a Friday night! Lame.
I have been sitting in my lazy boy recliner all day. I've been rotating between finishing recorded tv shows, reading my Christian dating book (which really depresses me) and playing xbox. I folded clothes, iron clothes, cooked lunch, balanced my checkbook, wrote a letter in Russian, clean my room up, arranged my work station and walked to the post office. I just can't sit around. I go crazy. I had these same problems when I lived at my parents' house. I just like to go. I enjoy going to new places, old places, whatever. I want to socialize.
Next weekend I will be heading to Heber Springs, so that will be interesting. I haven't been there in many years and I look forward to finding caches. I will have to bring a couple of sets of clothes since it's so humid here, but oh well. That's the price I pay for being active. Speaking of, I'm down to 181 as of this morning. I still eat about the same stuff, just less of it. I also cut out sodas completely and I do pushups and run almost every day. I love the way I feel after running in the mornings, but it really depresses me when I run here. There aren't many sidewalks and I almost always get chased by dogs.
Anywho, enough moping around. I'm going to watch "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs" and see if that will motivate my a little. =)
I'm going stir crazy. This is probably the first weekend I have had absolutely nothing to do. Last weekend I went to LR on Friday, had a cook out on Saturday and then went stir crazy on Sunday (so I went mountainbiking when it was 103 outside). I started this weekend by biking on Friday morning (45 minute drive). I had a great time hanging out with a good Christian friend of mine and then grabbed some lunch with some of his church buddies. It was a lot of fun. Last night, I drove to Eldo (45 minutes or so) and met up with some geocaching buddies to discuss an event we are doing in August. I went to Burger King and their a/c was broken, they were out of ice and their drink machine was missing half of the flavors. That started my downward spiral. I then went out geocaching with a friend and decided it was too hot and humid so we went to the downtown square to hit up the night life. We checked out this quaint little bar and then realized that everyone in Eldo leaves town on the weekends. The bar was empty and other two bars were mostly dead too...on a Friday night! Lame.
I have been sitting in my lazy boy recliner all day. I've been rotating between finishing recorded tv shows, reading my Christian dating book (which really depresses me) and playing xbox. I folded clothes, iron clothes, cooked lunch, balanced my checkbook, wrote a letter in Russian, clean my room up, arranged my work station and walked to the post office. I just can't sit around. I go crazy. I had these same problems when I lived at my parents' house. I just like to go. I enjoy going to new places, old places, whatever. I want to socialize.
Next weekend I will be heading to Heber Springs, so that will be interesting. I haven't been there in many years and I look forward to finding caches. I will have to bring a couple of sets of clothes since it's so humid here, but oh well. That's the price I pay for being active. Speaking of, I'm down to 181 as of this morning. I still eat about the same stuff, just less of it. I also cut out sodas completely and I do pushups and run almost every day. I love the way I feel after running in the mornings, but it really depresses me when I run here. There aren't many sidewalks and I almost always get chased by dogs.
Anywho, enough moping around. I'm going to watch "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs" and see if that will motivate my a little. =)
Sunday, June 26, 2011
The night is darkest just before the dawn
Geez it's 178 days until I am finished here and I sure hope, pray, beg that Dallas is better than here. I just got done biking, on the road, and almost got hit three or four times. I drive an hour, one way, to get to church on Sundays only to hang out with mostly college kids at a super conservative church. I'm trying so hard to stay positive and see the positive stuff here, but man it's tough. I guess I am lucky to not have traffic to fight, relatively low utilities (I think) and um...lots of trees. Plus I can go shoot for free down the road at a public range (it's an hour away). I am employed at a great company and a relatively good job.
I guess I just want to enjoy somewhere with more opportunities to do stuff. Anything from Habitat for Humanity builds to learning how to cook sushi on dates to watching the Rangers play baseball. I just would like more options instead of hunting or fishing or swimming in a brown river. I love my church family here; the college kids keep me young and give me a great chance to share advice from my college years.
I really have no room to complain; I am extremely blessed, even beyond what I could ever deserve. I have wonderful friends here and have done some cool stuff (Vicksburg, Disney World, White Sands, etc). In the end, I am blessed by God and I need to find ways to use my talents here in south Arkansas for just a little longer.
Like the preacher said today, "If you are ever out walking around thinking your life is bad, just visit the nursing home and see how it is to have machines keeping you alive."
I guess I just want to enjoy somewhere with more opportunities to do stuff. Anything from Habitat for Humanity builds to learning how to cook sushi on dates to watching the Rangers play baseball. I just would like more options instead of hunting or fishing or swimming in a brown river. I love my church family here; the college kids keep me young and give me a great chance to share advice from my college years.
I really have no room to complain; I am extremely blessed, even beyond what I could ever deserve. I have wonderful friends here and have done some cool stuff (Vicksburg, Disney World, White Sands, etc). In the end, I am blessed by God and I need to find ways to use my talents here in south Arkansas for just a little longer.
Like the preacher said today, "If you are ever out walking around thinking your life is bad, just visit the nursing home and see how it is to have machines keeping you alive."
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Halfway there
My parents came into town this weekend and we built a porch. My mom and sister helped clean the up the yard and dad, Cory and I built the porch. I still have a few hours of work left but I should be able to finish up soon. I think I will take tomorrow off (after worship service) and go to the range and send some lead down the way. I enjoy going to Magnolia and seeing my college buds. They are still in college and have some learning to do, but they are open to advice and help keep me young. I enjoy their antics (nerf wars, bowling, etc) and think they are all very unique kiddos.
Life is going so fast right now. I am moving out in about 185 days, which means I am almost there. It is nice knowing when I will be moving/transferring/etc but at the same time, I am just dying to get away. This town never grew on me like I thought it would. I had hoped with all the forests and such there would be ample opportunity to get out and enjoy it. However, when it's nice, the mosquitos are alive and well and then when it isn't nice, I don't want to be out. I'm really surprised there aren't more big parks with trails and stuff. Oh well. I have met some great people and I am glad for that. I have had a chance to save up money and should come out pretty well ahead when I leave here. I hope Dallas doesn't break that up. We'll see though.
Have I told you about my new health goals? I run a couple days a week in the morning and then I am watching what I eat. Since I've started, I have dropped about 10 pounds. Just 15 or so left to go. Plus I do pushups every day and work my abs a little. The ab workout isn't official, but I have to do 50 pushups a day, which is really doing a good number on my arms. I like the results and hope I can keep it up. It is tough to pass up good food so often, but I am getting better at it.
Being single has shown me just how blessed I am in the area of female friends (and males to some extent). I have started talking to Libby Weiler again, which is always fun. She is at an interesting point in her life and I like to listen to her optimism. V is there for me, as always and I really can't find a way to show her just how awesome her encouragement is to me. Really, both of them have been a real pick me up on bad days and I am lucky to still have them around, even with my jerk actions sometimes. Jonnie P, as usual, is there to support me, even with his crazy problems in his own life. He is risking being without a job right now waiting on the perfect opportunity and I am proud of him for that. Plus he has a serious girl interest in his life and I enjoy helping him with advice. His constant advice is not always asked for, but always welcome. I have gone against his advice once and it turned out okay, but I still consider his every pointer he has for me. One of the good things God blessed me with by coming to Camden: I got to meet one of my best and most trusted friends.
Anywho, life is good, God is great and everything we experience happens for a reason. If you can't figure out why, don't worry about it, it will become apparent when the time is right. Sweet dreams.
Life is going so fast right now. I am moving out in about 185 days, which means I am almost there. It is nice knowing when I will be moving/transferring/etc but at the same time, I am just dying to get away. This town never grew on me like I thought it would. I had hoped with all the forests and such there would be ample opportunity to get out and enjoy it. However, when it's nice, the mosquitos are alive and well and then when it isn't nice, I don't want to be out. I'm really surprised there aren't more big parks with trails and stuff. Oh well. I have met some great people and I am glad for that. I have had a chance to save up money and should come out pretty well ahead when I leave here. I hope Dallas doesn't break that up. We'll see though.
Have I told you about my new health goals? I run a couple days a week in the morning and then I am watching what I eat. Since I've started, I have dropped about 10 pounds. Just 15 or so left to go. Plus I do pushups every day and work my abs a little. The ab workout isn't official, but I have to do 50 pushups a day, which is really doing a good number on my arms. I like the results and hope I can keep it up. It is tough to pass up good food so often, but I am getting better at it.
Being single has shown me just how blessed I am in the area of female friends (and males to some extent). I have started talking to Libby Weiler again, which is always fun. She is at an interesting point in her life and I like to listen to her optimism. V is there for me, as always and I really can't find a way to show her just how awesome her encouragement is to me. Really, both of them have been a real pick me up on bad days and I am lucky to still have them around, even with my jerk actions sometimes. Jonnie P, as usual, is there to support me, even with his crazy problems in his own life. He is risking being without a job right now waiting on the perfect opportunity and I am proud of him for that. Plus he has a serious girl interest in his life and I enjoy helping him with advice. His constant advice is not always asked for, but always welcome. I have gone against his advice once and it turned out okay, but I still consider his every pointer he has for me. One of the good things God blessed me with by coming to Camden: I got to meet one of my best and most trusted friends.
Anywho, life is good, God is great and everything we experience happens for a reason. If you can't figure out why, don't worry about it, it will become apparent when the time is right. Sweet dreams.
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
Patience is a virtue
Wow these past couple of weeks have been a real challenge for me. Work has been super tough and my weekends have been super packed. Three weekends ago, I drove in from Dallas, then to Little Rock and biked a couple of hard miles. The weekend after that, I drove to Faytown (where I biked at least 30 miles) and then up into SW Missouri for a wedding. Last weekend, I went to Mobile and hit the beaches (not quite as challenging as other weekends).
Most challenging of all has been the challenge I've taken with my patience. The Dallas trip resulted in a job offer (which I accepted) and so now I have to wait until Jan to start working in Dallas. WOOHOO! Super pumped about that, but I have to finish up strong here in Camden. I'll survive, but it is tough.
The weekend in Faytown was tough because I had to let God show me patience with my relationships and let Him point me in the right direction. I am always so impatient, but I am going to let Him direct me. The same goes with last weekend in Mobile. I have lots of ideas about what God wants for me, signals that I get and such, but I am just so friggin impatient. I want answers NOW. However, I am praying and meditating and relaxing so that I can see the path in due time. It is tough, but I want to make sure I take the right plunges when I need to do so. I slipped up, in different ways, both weekends by trying to rush stuff (and I guess I sorta am doing that now) but I am dedicating my spirit to being patient. All things come to those that wait...or something.
The beach last weekend was excellent. I got a bad burn on Saturday, but I braved the sun on Sunday and did it all again. The burn is fading away now and I looking a little darker for it. I wish I could have just spent a few more days in the sand doing nothing but reading. I got to see an old friend of mine from the Arkansas Governor's School days, which is always fun. Anywho, that was that. I ate lots of good food and covered lots of long miles. The trip was worth it for the beach and rekindling of a friendship that will be in Dallas when I step into that foreign land in January.
Well I think that is all for me. I am going to get into serious overdrive at some point and remodel this house a little more. We will see how that goes.
I hope God blesses you today and if not, I hope you can see the blessings in disguise out there for you.
Most challenging of all has been the challenge I've taken with my patience. The Dallas trip resulted in a job offer (which I accepted) and so now I have to wait until Jan to start working in Dallas. WOOHOO! Super pumped about that, but I have to finish up strong here in Camden. I'll survive, but it is tough.
The weekend in Faytown was tough because I had to let God show me patience with my relationships and let Him point me in the right direction. I am always so impatient, but I am going to let Him direct me. The same goes with last weekend in Mobile. I have lots of ideas about what God wants for me, signals that I get and such, but I am just so friggin impatient. I want answers NOW. However, I am praying and meditating and relaxing so that I can see the path in due time. It is tough, but I want to make sure I take the right plunges when I need to do so. I slipped up, in different ways, both weekends by trying to rush stuff (and I guess I sorta am doing that now) but I am dedicating my spirit to being patient. All things come to those that wait...or something.
The beach last weekend was excellent. I got a bad burn on Saturday, but I braved the sun on Sunday and did it all again. The burn is fading away now and I looking a little darker for it. I wish I could have just spent a few more days in the sand doing nothing but reading. I got to see an old friend of mine from the Arkansas Governor's School days, which is always fun. Anywho, that was that. I ate lots of good food and covered lots of long miles. The trip was worth it for the beach and rekindling of a friendship that will be in Dallas when I step into that foreign land in January.
Well I think that is all for me. I am going to get into serious overdrive at some point and remodel this house a little more. We will see how that goes.
I hope God blesses you today and if not, I hope you can see the blessings in disguise out there for you.
Tuesday, May 03, 2011
There's a light at the end of the tunnel
I may or may not be going to Dallas next week to interview for a design engineering position!!! WOOHOO!! I am so excited. This will be just another step forward in my career goal of being a subject matter expert in engineering...or something. The news could not have come at a better time; my car's alternator went out Saturday, my oven broke and I need new truck tires. So yeah, I could use some good news.
Work has been soooo tough. I am exhausted at the end of every day. I love it though, deep down. I have a ton of projects that are really big and I enjoy the responsibility. However, the results never reward me enough to keep me happy all the time. I think it's mostly my issue, but I feel like we just don't get any respect. I know that deep down we are respected as MEs, but it seems people just don't want to admit it. Oh well. I'll keep working hard and I know my work will pay off eventually. Anyways, I just wanted to fill you in with my latest status on going elsewhere. I really hope this stuff pans out, but if not, I will keep looking for the next opportunity to develop my skills and position myself somewhere I will be valued.
In other news, I got the chance to visit Pleasant Valley's young professionals class last Sunday. It was great to study the Word with intelligent people who are experiencing life in the same way I am. They have great comments and I enjoy the change of perspective (sorry SAU folks). PV has some great stuff going right now.
Work has been soooo tough. I am exhausted at the end of every day. I love it though, deep down. I have a ton of projects that are really big and I enjoy the responsibility. However, the results never reward me enough to keep me happy all the time. I think it's mostly my issue, but I feel like we just don't get any respect. I know that deep down we are respected as MEs, but it seems people just don't want to admit it. Oh well. I'll keep working hard and I know my work will pay off eventually. Anyways, I just wanted to fill you in with my latest status on going elsewhere. I really hope this stuff pans out, but if not, I will keep looking for the next opportunity to develop my skills and position myself somewhere I will be valued.
In other news, I got the chance to visit Pleasant Valley's young professionals class last Sunday. It was great to study the Word with intelligent people who are experiencing life in the same way I am. They have great comments and I enjoy the change of perspective (sorry SAU folks). PV has some great stuff going right now.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Whew...that was fun
The past two weeks have been wild!!! Last week was e-week at work and I spent a ton of time doing that. The kids really enjoyed the competition, but man it was stressful. We had to constantly look at the rules and make sure it was as fair as possible. In the end, the competition was fierce, but one of the underdogs pulled out and won the thing. Good times! I spent soooo much time that week and the week before getting ready, on top of supporting the production line and learning as much as I could. It was a long, tough week but I really enjoyed all the planning and power. At one point the plant manager even asked me and another guy to make the decision and go with it. Pretty awesome!
Then this week came along. My boss was out most of the week and stuff just seemed to keep going awry. I worked with my QE and we took care of the issues on our end and I think we took care of it in a very professional manner. I stayed late every day to help clean up the mess and get stuff running smooth again. I didn't mind it, but I was being pulled in so many directions and that got frustrating. So this whole time, my boss is gone and yet the ME group is pulling it together and making things run. Boss shows up today and things are pretty good, except I find out one of my projects has hit a major hurdle that could put us behind a week or two. I tell my boss and he flips. Goes into this "do whatever it takes to get this done" mode. Typically, I would probably roll with it, but this time I was already stressed and super tired. I start telling him how stretched thin I am (we are missing at least three MEs right now) and how I can't get the priorities of stuff straight. He basically tells me I need to both support the floor (by being out there) and get this project done (which involved very little true work on my part, mostly just bugging people). I go into his office to discuss this project further and the conversation ends (as I am telling him how busy I have been) with him telling me that I need to be careful how I use my time at work and not to use it for personal stuff too much (instant messenger, browsing the web, etc). I instantly take this to mean he's accusing me of being so busy because I'm goofy off at work. So, needless to say, I've been upset this evening. Here I am working my butt off as a level 1 (when I will be eligible for level 3 in just a few months) and getting talked to about doing personal stuff at work. I couldn't believe it.
I thought moving to this new program would help me stay around a little longer, but I am just about done dealing with it here. I rode my bike through town and there are a ton of abandoned houses and houses for sale around here. It is kinda scary.
I feel much better now that I blogged about it. I will keep working hard, and if I don't get recognition, I know that my recognition is somewhere else (up high). It's really frustrating and I will probably discuss it with my boss tomorrow. In the meantime, I think I'll start job hunting again. Any of you want to hire an over-achieving mechanical engineer?
Then this week came along. My boss was out most of the week and stuff just seemed to keep going awry. I worked with my QE and we took care of the issues on our end and I think we took care of it in a very professional manner. I stayed late every day to help clean up the mess and get stuff running smooth again. I didn't mind it, but I was being pulled in so many directions and that got frustrating. So this whole time, my boss is gone and yet the ME group is pulling it together and making things run. Boss shows up today and things are pretty good, except I find out one of my projects has hit a major hurdle that could put us behind a week or two. I tell my boss and he flips. Goes into this "do whatever it takes to get this done" mode. Typically, I would probably roll with it, but this time I was already stressed and super tired. I start telling him how stretched thin I am (we are missing at least three MEs right now) and how I can't get the priorities of stuff straight. He basically tells me I need to both support the floor (by being out there) and get this project done (which involved very little true work on my part, mostly just bugging people). I go into his office to discuss this project further and the conversation ends (as I am telling him how busy I have been) with him telling me that I need to be careful how I use my time at work and not to use it for personal stuff too much (instant messenger, browsing the web, etc). I instantly take this to mean he's accusing me of being so busy because I'm goofy off at work. So, needless to say, I've been upset this evening. Here I am working my butt off as a level 1 (when I will be eligible for level 3 in just a few months) and getting talked to about doing personal stuff at work. I couldn't believe it.
I thought moving to this new program would help me stay around a little longer, but I am just about done dealing with it here. I rode my bike through town and there are a ton of abandoned houses and houses for sale around here. It is kinda scary.
I feel much better now that I blogged about it. I will keep working hard, and if I don't get recognition, I know that my recognition is somewhere else (up high). It's really frustrating and I will probably discuss it with my boss tomorrow. In the meantime, I think I'll start job hunting again. Any of you want to hire an over-achieving mechanical engineer?
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Really?!?!
The weekend was going well; I got to play some xbox, didn't have to drive all the way to Magtown to go to church this morning, got some lunch with some of my favorite Riders for Christ and I got to play basketball. Then it dawned on me: "real life" begins again tomorrow.
It's amazing how frustrated I get about work. I'm really torn right now because I feel like I have always given my 110%, got a Masters degree while starting up a new program and constantly try to find new ways to get young people involved at work, yet I can't get a promotion. I just switched to a vastly understaffed program and I have been working my tail off. I hit the ground running and have been trying to keep a positive attitude even though most of the MEs are anything but. I am keeping my responsibilities with e-week, which keeps me super busy, and still trying to learn as much as possible. I just don't understand. It's not the money bonus (although that would be nice) but rather the appreciation and respect that would come with the bump. My friend, who started the exact day as myself, got a promotion last summer and he doesn't even have a masters degree. If I did something to screw up, I just want to know exactly what I did so I can figure out if it was worth it.
Whatever. I'm sick of being upset and so I suppose I should adjust my attitude. That's what leaders do, right? Keep me at my "cloutless" level 1 engineer and I'll keep working my tail off. That way, when I grow up, I might get to move to a level 2. Woohoo! My enthusiasm for work is ever growing.
It's amazing how frustrated I get about work. I'm really torn right now because I feel like I have always given my 110%, got a Masters degree while starting up a new program and constantly try to find new ways to get young people involved at work, yet I can't get a promotion. I just switched to a vastly understaffed program and I have been working my tail off. I hit the ground running and have been trying to keep a positive attitude even though most of the MEs are anything but. I am keeping my responsibilities with e-week, which keeps me super busy, and still trying to learn as much as possible. I just don't understand. It's not the money bonus (although that would be nice) but rather the appreciation and respect that would come with the bump. My friend, who started the exact day as myself, got a promotion last summer and he doesn't even have a masters degree. If I did something to screw up, I just want to know exactly what I did so I can figure out if it was worth it.
Whatever. I'm sick of being upset and so I suppose I should adjust my attitude. That's what leaders do, right? Keep me at my "cloutless" level 1 engineer and I'll keep working my tail off. That way, when I grow up, I might get to move to a level 2. Woohoo! My enthusiasm for work is ever growing.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Chi-town
I just got back from Chicago and I loved it! I never thought I would like such a large, yankee city, but it turned out to be lots of fun. I thought often of Moscow and St. Pete and enjoyed the L there (that's the metro). We worked out of a local church and so we spent a ton of time there. One day we cleaned the whole building, one day we visited nursing homes, one day we spent a few hours at the Great Chicago Food Depository (packaging milk in a 40 degree room) and one day we went sight seeing. The church there is small in number, but large in size and personality. I really connected with a old lady that went with us to the nursing home; her name was Jan and she was young at heart.
While at the nursing home, she entertained an older man who was in a wheelchair. He was very quiet but quite mischievous. He wanted an RC cola, so Jan bought him one. He then wanted the change because it was pretty. She didn't give it to him. He then offered me a drink of the soda, I reached up and he pulled it away and told me to smell it. As I put my nose up to it, he pushed it up rapidly and hit me in the nose. What a stinker! Later, he kept threatening Jan with pouring the soda in the song book bag. It was quite an experience and, come to find out, the guy hasn't spoken much at all until this last visit. Pretty amazing.
We spent Tuesday at the Field Museum. It was really neat, but very dated too. There were a ton of exhibits, but they all need to be updated. I loved the dinosaur skeletons though; super cool! We also explored the "Magnificent Mile". It's a strip of some of the top end stores in America. I didn't go in many of them (the Lego Store, Vic Secret, Eddy Bauer, were about it) but I did enjoy the walk. For dinner, we hit up Ed Debevic's place. It is set up to look like an old diner and the waiters insult you. They're quite rude and it gets to be quite entertaining. Weird right? I paid to be insulted and waited on horribly. Christ, KT and I were the only ones that went and it was worth the long walk (almost a mile off the mile). We got to ride the L train back to the Mag Mile, so it was worth it. Altogether, we walked over 14 miles.
I should mention at this point that I woke up early every morning and lifted weights and swam for at least 30 minutes. I was proud of myself and once again showed that I don't oppose getting up early, but that getting up at 5 is too much (I was up at 6 most mornings). However, I just weighed in and I definitely gained weight. I'll tell myself it was muscle, but I'm still disappointed. On Tuesday, I met a Russian down in the pool and we got to be good friends and speaking with him was something I looked forward to every morning. His name was Anatole. I wish I could have gotten his contact info.
Anywho, fill in the other days working in the church cleaning or preparing the food supplies. There were some adventures in there (like walking to McDs at 10:45 pm on Thursday night), but nothing real big. Friday, we hit up the Lincoln Park zoo and then hit the road. Chicago: been there, done that.
The trip was eye opening for me because I have really become intolerant of people. I tried my best to put up with stuff, but I just constantly found myself cursing under my breath, rolling my eyes or just plain ignoring people. I won't get into the details, but I found myself questioning the sincerity of people's prayers, the immaturity of people being loud and obnoxious and people presuming to be experts because they once did this one thing a million years ago. I'm praying about it regularly and trying my best to help others instead of just criticizing them. I'll survive, I guess I'm just not a college kid anymore but if I want to be a professor someday, then I need to learn to cope.
Here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure.
Sue
Food Depository
Lincoln Park Zoo
p.s. I should mention I am already ready to travel again.
While at the nursing home, she entertained an older man who was in a wheelchair. He was very quiet but quite mischievous. He wanted an RC cola, so Jan bought him one. He then wanted the change because it was pretty. She didn't give it to him. He then offered me a drink of the soda, I reached up and he pulled it away and told me to smell it. As I put my nose up to it, he pushed it up rapidly and hit me in the nose. What a stinker! Later, he kept threatening Jan with pouring the soda in the song book bag. It was quite an experience and, come to find out, the guy hasn't spoken much at all until this last visit. Pretty amazing.
We spent Tuesday at the Field Museum. It was really neat, but very dated too. There were a ton of exhibits, but they all need to be updated. I loved the dinosaur skeletons though; super cool! We also explored the "Magnificent Mile". It's a strip of some of the top end stores in America. I didn't go in many of them (the Lego Store, Vic Secret, Eddy Bauer, were about it) but I did enjoy the walk. For dinner, we hit up Ed Debevic's place. It is set up to look like an old diner and the waiters insult you. They're quite rude and it gets to be quite entertaining. Weird right? I paid to be insulted and waited on horribly. Christ, KT and I were the only ones that went and it was worth the long walk (almost a mile off the mile). We got to ride the L train back to the Mag Mile, so it was worth it. Altogether, we walked over 14 miles.
I should mention at this point that I woke up early every morning and lifted weights and swam for at least 30 minutes. I was proud of myself and once again showed that I don't oppose getting up early, but that getting up at 5 is too much (I was up at 6 most mornings). However, I just weighed in and I definitely gained weight. I'll tell myself it was muscle, but I'm still disappointed. On Tuesday, I met a Russian down in the pool and we got to be good friends and speaking with him was something I looked forward to every morning. His name was Anatole. I wish I could have gotten his contact info.
Anywho, fill in the other days working in the church cleaning or preparing the food supplies. There were some adventures in there (like walking to McDs at 10:45 pm on Thursday night), but nothing real big. Friday, we hit up the Lincoln Park zoo and then hit the road. Chicago: been there, done that.
The trip was eye opening for me because I have really become intolerant of people. I tried my best to put up with stuff, but I just constantly found myself cursing under my breath, rolling my eyes or just plain ignoring people. I won't get into the details, but I found myself questioning the sincerity of people's prayers, the immaturity of people being loud and obnoxious and people presuming to be experts because they once did this one thing a million years ago. I'm praying about it regularly and trying my best to help others instead of just criticizing them. I'll survive, I guess I'm just not a college kid anymore but if I want to be a professor someday, then I need to learn to cope.
Here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure.
Sue
Food Depository
Lincoln Park Zoo
p.s. I should mention I am already ready to travel again.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Ugh...
I have been in such a dull mood for the past couple of days. It cycles up and down, but mostly I've been down. I really don't know why, but I am trying to combat it with exercise and eating healthier and such. Actually I'm doing those things so I can sport my sexy hott speedo on my trip to Chicago (there's an indoor heated pool).
I really like my new job. Yeah, I still deal with the same old local junk, but the job keeps me really busy and I enjoy that. Today, the guy that trained me was gone, so I ran basically the entire line. It was super fast paced and I did great in it.
Anywho, I just felt like venting on here about being in a foul mood would help. Didn't do as much as I liked, but I do feel a little better. Time to clean the house and go exercise before going to bed. I work at 5am tomorrow morning. Guess who is excited? :) Life is still good.
I really like my new job. Yeah, I still deal with the same old local junk, but the job keeps me really busy and I enjoy that. Today, the guy that trained me was gone, so I ran basically the entire line. It was super fast paced and I did great in it.
Anywho, I just felt like venting on here about being in a foul mood would help. Didn't do as much as I liked, but I do feel a little better. Time to clean the house and go exercise before going to bed. I work at 5am tomorrow morning. Guess who is excited? :) Life is still good.
Monday, March 07, 2011
What a day!
So much has happened since I last posted on here. For one, I have a new significant other. My last girl just didn't work out; I'm sad things did not go better, but I know that God puts everyone in our lives for a reason and I am glad I got the chance to know V. I hope our paths cross again someday. My new significant other, which I will refer to as KT, is cool. She's an ag major (a little different), fairly athletic, smart, witty and extremely kindhearted. She might just be one of the nicest people I know. It is pretty exciting to be in the starting stage again, but, as usual, I have the common worries of throwing my heart out again to another person. She does seem to be the real deal, but I don't want to throw that label out there just yet; there are still things that need to develop before I can make any sort of outlook. However, I will say this: I think I might have finally found a girl (since I've been seriously dating) that likes me as much as I like her. That's extremely exciting and something I just absolutely adore about her. We'll see.
Enough about all that. I got transferred to another program at work last week. I had spoken with a manager about switching over to help my career a little bit. I am now on a mostly automated program that makes other products that seem much more advanced than the truck. However, they make about 800 times more product than my first line. I have to be at work at 6 (no slacking) and I really don't like that. If I could just come in a little later (7 or 8) I think I would be so much more productive and a better employee; I just don't like going to bed early. All weekend, I stay up until midnight or better, but then I have to get used to going to bed at 8 or 9. Ugh. Beat me with a stick. However, with gas doing like it is, I am glad to have a job.
While life is going very well for me, I must admit I am struggling in many areas right now. First, I just can't seem to get my attitude right. Whether it is dealing with work or just other people, I seem to take the wrong mindset. At work, I see people just being unethical and I can't get over it. It's just so blatant and no one seems to care. On a personal level, I just need to start seeing people like we all are- flawed. I can't really get into it on here; it's just too hard to explain but basically I keep getting mad because I try to do nice things for people (genuinely because I really want to) but don't get appreciated for it. It's selfish and not the way to see things, so I am pretty ashamed of it. However, I am going to start trying to hold onto the original reason I do things for people and forget about whether or not I get thanks for it. Finally, the area I am really bothered by is my weight. I just can't seem to get it under control. It's hovering around 195 and I need to be around 170 or so. I am trying to eat a little better, but it just seems the healthier I eat, the hungrier I am. I had one soda today and I am limiting myself to that (less if I can). I also had an orange, sandwich and small salad for lunch. Within an hour, I was starving. I have found that oatmeal works best for breakfast; I typically don't get hungry again for a while.
Whatever, I am sure I will figure something out. I am heading on a big trip in a few weeks. I am going to work in a soup kitchen and food pantry in Chicago. I'm super excited and hope I really get to do some good work.
Enough about all that. I got transferred to another program at work last week. I had spoken with a manager about switching over to help my career a little bit. I am now on a mostly automated program that makes other products that seem much more advanced than the truck. However, they make about 800 times more product than my first line. I have to be at work at 6 (no slacking) and I really don't like that. If I could just come in a little later (7 or 8) I think I would be so much more productive and a better employee; I just don't like going to bed early. All weekend, I stay up until midnight or better, but then I have to get used to going to bed at 8 or 9. Ugh. Beat me with a stick. However, with gas doing like it is, I am glad to have a job.
While life is going very well for me, I must admit I am struggling in many areas right now. First, I just can't seem to get my attitude right. Whether it is dealing with work or just other people, I seem to take the wrong mindset. At work, I see people just being unethical and I can't get over it. It's just so blatant and no one seems to care. On a personal level, I just need to start seeing people like we all are- flawed. I can't really get into it on here; it's just too hard to explain but basically I keep getting mad because I try to do nice things for people (genuinely because I really want to) but don't get appreciated for it. It's selfish and not the way to see things, so I am pretty ashamed of it. However, I am going to start trying to hold onto the original reason I do things for people and forget about whether or not I get thanks for it. Finally, the area I am really bothered by is my weight. I just can't seem to get it under control. It's hovering around 195 and I need to be around 170 or so. I am trying to eat a little better, but it just seems the healthier I eat, the hungrier I am. I had one soda today and I am limiting myself to that (less if I can). I also had an orange, sandwich and small salad for lunch. Within an hour, I was starving. I have found that oatmeal works best for breakfast; I typically don't get hungry again for a while.
Whatever, I am sure I will figure something out. I am heading on a big trip in a few weeks. I am going to work in a soup kitchen and food pantry in Chicago. I'm super excited and hope I really get to do some good work.
Friday, February 04, 2011
Great Week!
This past week was probably the best week since I've been in Camden, within the confines of the two counties of Camden and Magnolia. All week long, I've been working engineering week activities at work, which is a ton of fun. I have been trying to take the reigns of it and planning events left and right. Tuesday, I went to Eldo for half a day to buy supplies and then I spent yesterday and today putting the kits together. I also visited CF today and got to work with the kids building some cool machines to do different things. It has just been a great week.
Outside of work, I've been quite busy. Last weekend was wild! I went geocaching all day Saturday with Carrie and Jeremy (both cool cats) and then went to Shreveport to a great acapella singing class. On the way back, I had an awesome time with a full truck (Katie jumped in for the ride). Sunday, I worshiped and then went to hide geocaches with Melanie and Katie. We had fun and then went to evening worship. Afterward we had dinner and I headed home. Wednesday I had an excellent dinner of alligator and steak, which pretty much made my day (and something I was looking forward to all week). Then tonight we had a night of singing, which I always love, and then a movie night. Good times, good times.
Compared to last month, this month is shaping up quite nice. Basically figured out that life goes on, even if not as planned. God is pretty amazing for His ability to make things work out okay. I'm not sure what he has planned for the next couple of months, but I hope it goes just like He wants it. I'm still dazed and confused about a lot of stuff, but I'm getting along just fine. Now...as for my career...I may end up staying around a little longer if things work out right.
Outside of work, I've been quite busy. Last weekend was wild! I went geocaching all day Saturday with Carrie and Jeremy (both cool cats) and then went to Shreveport to a great acapella singing class. On the way back, I had an awesome time with a full truck (Katie jumped in for the ride). Sunday, I worshiped and then went to hide geocaches with Melanie and Katie. We had fun and then went to evening worship. Afterward we had dinner and I headed home. Wednesday I had an excellent dinner of alligator and steak, which pretty much made my day (and something I was looking forward to all week). Then tonight we had a night of singing, which I always love, and then a movie night. Good times, good times.
Compared to last month, this month is shaping up quite nice. Basically figured out that life goes on, even if not as planned. God is pretty amazing for His ability to make things work out okay. I'm not sure what he has planned for the next couple of months, but I hope it goes just like He wants it. I'm still dazed and confused about a lot of stuff, but I'm getting along just fine. Now...as for my career...I may end up staying around a little longer if things work out right.
Monday, January 17, 2011
And the walls came crashing down...
Man I had a great time snowboarding last week. I went with the Razorbacks for Christ and we enjoyed some great powder. There were plenty of setbacks for the trip, like a the trailer didn't have lights, we had to use a bus instead of a van, the van had transmission issues and my handle broke off on my hummer, but otherwise we had an uneventful trip. No injuries except for plenty of skiers who had their pride hurt when they tried to snowboard and failed. I hung out with some old friends and met some new friends and really enjoyed the energy of the group. I hit up some bowls and might have pulled off a jump or two. I think if my knee is better next year, I might really try some jumps. I have the stability part down now, so jumps are the next step.
So about a week after that last post, the walls collapsed. I'm not sure where my life is heading now because what I had held as a constant has proven to not be so constant. I am sure that it will come back for me, but for right now I am putting it in God's hands completely. It's a scary feeling to not know what will happen. I know God has tests for us so that we can see our need for Him and I truly believe I am seeing that now. I will have to grow some and it will be painful, but I really hope that she can truly grow and see the love God has for her, just as she is. Regardless of what happens, I am still blessed beyond measure and truly appreciate her running into my life. God sends us people sometimes to help us become great and I believe she helped me on my way. I hope that she can continue to be my motivator, but it's in His hands now.
Work tomorrow. Should be interesting to see what I missed last week. Hopefully I can stay busy. However, in my spare time, I think I'll do some job searching. Like many people have said, it's time for change. Have a great week!
So about a week after that last post, the walls collapsed. I'm not sure where my life is heading now because what I had held as a constant has proven to not be so constant. I am sure that it will come back for me, but for right now I am putting it in God's hands completely. It's a scary feeling to not know what will happen. I know God has tests for us so that we can see our need for Him and I truly believe I am seeing that now. I will have to grow some and it will be painful, but I really hope that she can truly grow and see the love God has for her, just as she is. Regardless of what happens, I am still blessed beyond measure and truly appreciate her running into my life. God sends us people sometimes to help us become great and I believe she helped me on my way. I hope that she can continue to be my motivator, but it's in His hands now.
Work tomorrow. Should be interesting to see what I missed last week. Hopefully I can stay busy. However, in my spare time, I think I'll do some job searching. Like many people have said, it's time for change. Have a great week!
Saturday, January 01, 2011
Holidays
I am probably the most blessed guy to ever graduate from Caddo Hills, go to the University of Arkansas and work where I work...and yet I'm miserable at times. I had a great time snowboarding. My family is wonderful and I got some great gifts. I am blessed beyond belief with an excellent girlfriend and I have a job. However, I am just not content.
I'm about to go back to work in just a few hours and I'm so dreading it. I posted last time about some of the stuff that I despise about my job and I just keeping asking myself if it will get any better. I have a good friend that loves his job; he constantly tells me he hasn't worked in years because his job is far from work. I don't feel that way currently. There are some days that go really well and I think I have those things documented so I know what I enjoy, but I think more often than not, things go poorly.
I just don't know. It's frustrating because I can't pin down exactly what I could do differently and I don't want to be that guy that is never satisfied; I also don't want to be the guy that is just content with mediocrity.
I'm about to go back to work in just a few hours and I'm so dreading it. I posted last time about some of the stuff that I despise about my job and I just keeping asking myself if it will get any better. I have a good friend that loves his job; he constantly tells me he hasn't worked in years because his job is far from work. I don't feel that way currently. There are some days that go really well and I think I have those things documented so I know what I enjoy, but I think more often than not, things go poorly.
I just don't know. It's frustrating because I can't pin down exactly what I could do differently and I don't want to be that guy that is never satisfied; I also don't want to be the guy that is just content with mediocrity.
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