we're all doomed

The human race might as well just start shooting people. I swear there are so many lazy, crude, rude, mean people out there it makes me sick. I put up my post secret wall again and today I got two cards which absolutely infuriated me. One was about little kids and had lots of crude language and the other was about having relations with animals. Neither came from the heart, they both came from "hey this would be so funny to put up". I swear...This weekend Gregson became some residents' dump. The bathrooms were disgusting, the trash chutes backed up because ppl just piled crap in them and downstairs, 20 feet from a dumpster, there was a pile of trash. Honestly, do people not have manners or sense or what? It makes me so mad that someone doesn't beat their faces in and let them know that this sort of stuff isn't acceptable.

Man today went so well. I did tons of stuff and had some wonderful company all day. Although she spent most of her time with the organic book, we did get a little time to talk and that's always worth the wait. I finished all but one assignment I had planned on doing and got lots of reading done. Man oh man! Tomorrow I am going to swim and burn some uber calories and eat the rest of my sushi and spend, hopefully, more time with V.

Watched the illusionist tonight with the crew. I managed to get some money alloted for a weekly movie night, complete with pizza and drinks and snacks. It's super fun and, like the Bible study tomorrow night, a good way to sit back and relax for a bit. Hm...well that's all on my mind right now. Jordan's got me jealous with his situps and pushups, so I'm going to climb down onto the floor and do a few myself. Spring break is in...3 weeks!

Yeah I'm moving in with you...

So this weekend has flown by. I got really sick Thursday night/Friday morning and lost everything I had eaten for the past 2 days. Man it was so bad. I went to my 930 class and that was a huge mistake. I ended up sleeping for the rest of the day, and I felt a little better. I went to the baseball game, which was fun, but I miss the old days of Steve and Aspen. Pirates just aren't the same with out those crazy guys. I had to leave early, I started feeling bad again and came back to sleep some more. At 9, I went and balled for about 5 minutes and felt sick and my ankle hurt some more. Poop!

Dad came in today. I love my dad. He's so cool in a like a college kid way. He could totally pull it off again. We watched the Tennessee/Arkansas High game. Those crazy hogs players, they couldn't have beaten a good high school team tonight. I felt bad for buying those tickets for $20 apiece. Oh well, I got to see dad.

We talked some tonight about guys sleeping with girls. Just sleeping, nothing else. Is it wrong if everyone who knows they do it, knows they're just sleeping/talking? I talked about this couple who are both serious Christians and how they were so anal about making sure everyone knew that the house they bought they weren't living in together until they got married. That seems economically dumb, I mean it's really between God and them right? I don't personally see the problem with a couple sleeping together, from time to time when they haven't got to see much of each other lately, as long as everyone knows they are just sleeping. But then I guess there's no way to possibly know that 100%.

Well my weekend's almost shot now. I need to get to bed. I'm actually in the room before 2 am for a change. I am going to work on Sarah's car tomorrow. Should be some fun to get down and dirty in the car engine bay. Wooo. I hope I'm remembered some day for being the guy that would drop everything and come help my friends. If not, I'm trying to be that guy.

Healing, but still needing some TLC

Man oh man, I miss clubbin'. Granted I've only been like 3 times ever, but I've been to enough club-like places to know what I'm missing. I think when my ankle heals up I might try el Dickson street and see what's happening. Speaking of ankle, it hurts more when I ice it than when I heat it. The doctor said the opposite would happen, but he was way wrong. It is healing, slowly, but nonetheless getting much better.

I'm done! I am caught up with everything in my classes that I can do. I am not caught up totally, because I pay people to teach me things and they don't, and I can't figure out the problems. I feel so good to be wrapped up for the week. It's been the busiest week I've ever experienced; I had something every night. From going to see Kara's dad in Rogers to Bible study to lame meetings of five people, I've done so much.

I can not get toned up and it's really frustrating me. I feel like a chunk when I take my shirt off and sit down, but whenever I stand up and stretch I look pretty good. I dunno how those guys do it, I've even been dropping my cal intake like wildfire. I guess I could do more, though. I think perhaps the two weeks before SB I might not eat much of anything. Maybe just breakfast and lunch and snack on apples. Yum.

This apartment search is some killer fun. I rode the buses and talked to some really nice people. AHHH I just slammed my knee into the desk drawer...ugh...pain... We found some place with three bedroom, three bath and super big and cheap. We'll be checking that out soon, and hopefully the houses that Jordan's bro lives in. Three bedroom, two bath and a two car GARAGE!!!! Woo, my baby might get a roof over her head finally!

Well I'm going to go browse some car sites and see if I can get a good heart rate going for a bit. I have LH-M interviews next week. Should be some fun times. Hope I can get loaded this summer and work on my baby some.

I can't believe it's not butter..

I give up. I freaking give up! I took two tests last week that I knew I aced. They were tough, but I did really well. My answers made sense and worked out so good. Then I get them back. A 47 and a 69! The 69 is fixable, plus I should be able to get some points back, but 47 man! I can NOT believe it! The best I can get in there is a 91 now. THE BEST! I know I'll pull this out, but I can't believe it's happening again. I was ready for those. If you heard this from me last year, then you know it always seems to happen to me when I do "good" on a test. Ugh! I'm not worried, I'm not worried...

Bible study is such a blessing to me. It's basically just my friends and me discussing the wondrous words of the Almighty. It's nice to see people coming out and making comments and I wish everyone would be a little more outspoken. Sorry if I cut you off or make you feel like your comments are wrong, please keep them coming. I get on my soap boxes sometimes. :)

Lab II is not too bad. Dr. West is a really cool guy and we have a lot of fun in there just getting down and dirty and dangerous.

My ankle's not broken and I'm glad I went to the doctor today. He was a cool guy I've met before and we talked for a while about spring break and athletics and getting older. He cracked me up because I could barely talk because he wanted to so much. He was a bit of a hippy, I think and he kept telling me how no medicines would really heal me faster. But yeah, it could be up to six weeks before I'm anywhere near where I need to be. Fun stuff, I might try ball this week, we'll see. Otherwise I'll go to the pool and swim around in my speedo. YEAH!!!

C'mon spring break! I can not wait to skim board. I am going to tear it up and I'm ready to try some new moves I saw on TV. I have no skimmed in forever and I've got some catching up to do. Plus all the peeps going are going to be tons of fun. I can't wait to see Ryan's denim bikini and Steven with his shaved chest and Jordan running along in slow motion in his spee...uh...g'night.

What!? I want to take the test today!

I had three tests today in my four classes and guess what? My LARC test got canceled due to the professor not showing up! I aced the Heat test, minus the 4th problem and I'm positive I knocked the comm test out.

So we watched this movie in Comm tonight about a mock prison some college professor put together at some university. It had to be canceled after 6 days because it got so bad. The guards basically broke the inmates down and the inmates started going crazy. This one guy started going crazy in less than 36 hours there. He was yelling and saying he didn't know what was going on and cussing and stuff. It was wild! Kinda makes me think about how people fill in roles in situations. I think about the 10 cow girl. I've told the story before, but basically this prince purchased this girl for like 3 cows and took her away to his castle. Well he came back to the town with the same girl and she looked a million times better. They asked who she was and he told her this was the girl who he bought for 3 cows. The townspeople replied that she should be sold for no less than 10 cows and how'd she do that. He replied that telling a girl how beautiful she is, causes her to actually become that beautiful. Okay I suck at telling stories, but I like it and it's right in my head. Makes me wish every girl and guy had some prince/princess to tell him/her how beautiful they were. The world would be so much better.

So I just got JT's new album and it ROCKS! It's so good for private dance parties. I love dancing, even with a gimp ankle. Speaking of ankle, everyone is making me go to the doctor. It's going to be a waste of time, seriously. It still hurts and it's swollen and bruised so I guess I should get it checked out. I've been using crutches all day and the ladies love em. Heheheh! My ankle does feel a little better, though.

Uh oh...I am nerd

So I will first start with some rants and then get into the good stuff. I woke up early this morning to go fix some breakfast. Well to start off, my locks on the car were frozen, so I had to climb in through the hatch. It was funny though, minus my poopy ankle and all. Second I get to Harps, grab some grub and my battery is dead. Leave it up to the one cold day where I need to be somewhere in a hurry and my car is dead. I call up Joe and he saves me, again. Well I get to V's to make some breakfast and, although some minor setbacks in the gravy, it turns out alright. Not bad at all. UGH! LET'S FILL BOTTLES WITH COMPRESSED AIR AND BLOW THEM UP!!!
So I end up late for class, but she was really surprised at me showing up to cook some breakfast and, like I mentioned, it turned out good.

So Valentine's Day is now over. It was a good one this year, did alot and gave a lot and made some people smile. Chelsea loved her flowers and Patsie loved the teddy bear and candy I gave her. So good times.

Now for the good stuff. Okay if you think I'm pretty cool, it would probably be best to stop reading now....I love my astronautics class. It's such a cool thing to know how to get a ship from Earth to Pluto in a set amount of time. Then you've got Machine Element Design. That class is a ton of work, with stuff due almost every meeting and lots of work, but it's really neat. We're getting into stuff now that is mostly left up to us. I mean we have a rotating drive shaft at ## amount of revolutions that has to have a factor of safety of 2.1 and last at least 10^6 cycles. That's all the requirements we have, the rest is chosen by us. There's basically an infinite number of solutions. Yeah it's tough and yeah it's intensive, but man it's life! Finally something I can see applied to real life situations. Anywho, that's enough of that.

I talked to yet another friend today who is studying abroad. I think it would be nice to go elsewhere and study on someone else's tab, but I've decided I'd rather finish up here and then go overseas on my own time and someone else's money. I am going to get a great job when I leave here and I'll go travel then. I don't know why this is still an issue, I've made my decision. It keeps coming back up, though. Have a good Thursday.

Addendum: I once went on this trail in the woods. It started out beautiful, although there were lots of rocks and rivers to cross. As I got further along, I started seeing Pine trees. I don't like pine trees at all. The further I got, the more trees I saw. I abandoned that path and chose another one soon after. The new path was much prettier and had a lot less rivers to cross. As I kept walking, I noticed a pine tree. It was just one, but it scared me. Should I continue on and hope the tree is only one or quit now before it turns into a grove? My nature says continue on, but my legs waver.

I'm getting sick. Food doesn't taste anymore and I'm not hungry to eat.

It's Valentine's Day

Man I know most people are going to hate today, and I've even got a Valentine and I hate today. It's so dumb because it does remind everyone that they're single. If you're in a good relationship, every day should be like today. I guess it just gives some people that little bit of extra power to do something sweet. I dunno, but it's kinda dumb.

Today went well. I have three tests this Monday and one tomorrow, but I'm not worried at all. I have not been just real studious this semester, but I feel like I've paid better attention and I can do fine on these tests.

My ankle was as sore as all get out today. I iced it last night and have been moving it around a lot to get it flexed some more and man it's hurting. Now time for scalding hot water. Poo! It's lukewarm at best. Oh well, I've got an early morning tomorrow...er...today.

I got a Texas Longhorn teddy bear (you rock btw), some monkey bread (dry, but oh so good), some candy from my mom (she is the best) and some amazing cookies from my 8 year old girlfriend at home. Wooo...I can eat one piece a day until Spring Break.

The University of Crap

I hate this University. I want some people from other Universities to message me and tell me if their school is as poopie as mine. I emailed the scholarship office 3 weeks ago and just now got a response and on top of that, he misspelled a ton of words. So I've been trying for weeks now to figure out if I can move off-campus, out of this crap hole, and yet I can't get any decent answers. It turns out if a university gives you money for all your hard work, they can dictate EXACTLY where you spend it. If I live on campus, I can get it applied to on campus living, but if I move off then forget it. If I would've moved off campus this semester I would've lost 500 to the school and had to fork over some for a meal plan. That's ridiculous! I have money going to nothing and yet I'll be forced to pay for something from this university. Gawd...

So for you people who tell me to stop whining because you don't have anything paid for, I'm sorry you have to read this stuff.

I've got to get some work done. I'll slay this monster when I have a little more time.

It's almost time....

I've slept all day and it's been great. Woke up, drove to church, ate in the quad, heated my foot, and took a nap. It was a nice 3 hour nap, which means I'll be up all night. Wooo! Maybe when Jordan's asleep, I can get work done. Doubt it. Church was kinda blah today. Nathan really got into the sermon, which was nice, but it was just a sermon about how we're all freed slaves. Made me feel kinda bad for the things I think and do, knowing that I'm doing it because God sent Jesus here for me. I don't know if I could sacrifice something so big for a bunch of loser people. I mean, I get hacked off about the bathroom here being dirty and want to punch someone in the face. Okay enough of this.

We've been griping about birds for a while. The congregate outside my window and chirp all day. So Jason came in yesterday, and said "man you guys weren't kidding. They are loud." He then yelled, "SHUT UP!!!" They got real quiet for about 10 minutes, but now they're back at it. heheh. Crazy birds. Having the time of their lives. They should've flown south, now we're going to have to kill them all.

Valentine's Day is quickly approaching. What to do, what to do. I always try to come up with all this razzle dazzle stuff to do, but I'm drawing blanks right now. I think I might try the whole random gifts in February approach. I think that's so much better than just some gifts all on one day. Now the question is...who should I gift? I think I might gift some people in other people's names. That could be fun eh? It's weird when, within the circle of friends, people have feelings for one another. Most of them are not hidden, but never are stated out loud. Some are pretty apparent and others a little more reserved. The sad thing is that I know most everyone's stories and most of the relationships aren't going to ever happen unless some one gives. This old couple I know told me about how he proposed to her like four times or something. Finally she said yes. Why did she say yes that fourth time? Did he put on a better show that day? It's something interesting to think about.

I don't know why I posted this. I guess I just wanted to keep you up to date on what is going down in my mind. I'll tell you some things that are going to happen in the future that I can't stop thinking about: moving into an apartment, going to Gulf Shores, racing Vanessa and Jordan and Chris Deal, getting a job this summer, and finally...Wednesday and the mass chaos associated with that lovely day of the year. Wooo. To all you singles out there, don't worry about it. I have been single on that day and most of the years taken and you always feel a something a little less than perfect. For me, I feel bad for the ppl who want so bad to have a Valentine that I can't buy stuff for and let them know I love them. So for those of you who are single, buy something for another person who's single. Get them a box of candy hearts or a hula hoop or a teddy bear and give them a huge hug and smile and say "you're always my Valentine." Or don't. It'll make you feel so good inside and that's what the day is really about.

Man I think I'm getting old

So ever since football in the snow, my knees have been shot. My left knee has this aching pain every time I straighten it and then bend it. My right knee is still a little messed up from flag football. Well last night I jumped up for a rebound and rolled my ankle 90 degrees. I landed on the outside of my ankle, hard. I heard it pop about four times and man it hurt. I think I blacked out for a like a half second and then I just crawled away. Man I felt like a pud. I was like, "yeah I'm fine, someone get me." I then hobbled over to the other court and just laid there. Man it hurt. I've rolled it pretty bad before, but man not this bad. It swelled to the size of a softball last night, but now it's a little smaller. The problem is that the knee with the ankle is shot too, so it's all uncomfortable. I don't want to go to the doctor, because all he'll do is tell me to stay off it and give me some noninflammatory pills. Ugh...I feel like a pansy, because I just want to lay around and be pampered. Freaking legs...at least I've got them, though eh?

Ball last night was fun, for the first game. We played on the open gyms this time, due to the hper's inability to think about athletics. The court we normally play on was being used for a 50's dance. A 50's DANCE!!! Oh man, I was mad, but I kept my cool. The guys we played over and over and over were pretty good, but I think we could've beat them. They really only had two players, but we never could get open. Those two guys stayed on Jordan and me, and so it basically shut me down. Jordan did better, but that was after I was out for the night. Ugh.

Man this week's going to be great. I've got a test on Thursday in MED, which I'm really worried about. I've got V-day on Wednesday, which is going to be super busy for me. I need to get out and get some people some stuff. It looks like my sis, little girlfriend Patsie and Jordan's sister all have gifts for me already. Man oh man. Fun stuff. Well I need to knock out some homework and some reading and maybe a little studying. I'll let you know how that goes.

Kara's gone home for the weekend. Booo. It guess it'll be just the guys this weekend. V's got tests to study for.

WEEKEND!!

It's FRIDAY! This week has flown by. I've been soooo busy. Nonstop action. I hope I can finish up my stuff soon and then relax/study all weekend. MED is this thursday and I'm scared. I've not been able to do a single problem on my own. This stuff is tough. I'm sure it'll turn out okay, but I don't want to be studying all Wednesday. I've got Bible study and dinner to cook and plans to scheme and lab. yummy.

Today was Drew's birthday. I feel like I barely know the guy since he hooked up with Janet. I mean, he skipped ski trip, he never plays ball or hangs out. Sadness...We' re going o Mexico Viejo for his birthday dinner tonight and then maybe ice skating, but I'd rather play ball, so I'll probably skip on the pansy stuff and go play some ball. Ice=cold=blah. Boarding in the snow is all that's worth my time. We'll see, maybe I'll do it to see if I can salvage this friendship. I sure hope so, we were best of buds and I considered him one of my best friends. We'd discuss romantic plans for our girlfriends on Vday or birthdays or Christmas. It was fun times. Talked about all sorts of stuff.

I'm tired. Brush teeth, contacts out, sleep. Hm....sleep.

BOOO!

I think Steven broke my major veins through my knee. Seriously, it hurts all the time. It's a weird pain; it mostly occurs when I stretch out my leg. I wake up stretching and prepare myself for the pain about 4 seconds later. It's a pain that creeps up my leg. Got a lot done today, despite being mad at the world for some reason. Nonstop action. Wooo. Spring break seems so close, but so far. I need some money, even when I'm loaded. I miss the beach and my skim board and chasing crabs with Krystal. Sad. Well sweet day to you.

Talk about a comeback

Today should've gone better. I mean I didn't sleep at all and I didn't want to go to class, but everything was thrown my way to make it better. I woke up with a phone call from a lovely friend, and I smelled her all day. Today should've gone better. My heat class was so funny as Joe accused the professor of hitting on his own sister and the professor was like "GEEEZ, who said that?" You had to be there. Then astro, which I LOVE, got out early. Then in my LARC the girls sitting around me looked extra cute and I jumped into a pile of snow. Today should've gone better. I worked out hardcore and napped and then went to communication. It was fun, but there's a new student who might just be a problem in the future. I did have some awesome self-mixed drink and a good sandwich. Today should've gone better.

I feel like poo. Utter and complete crap. My eyes burn, I want to yell at the idiot who keeps slamming his door and the loud ppl in the hallway yelling and laughing and being college students with a lame excuse for a major.

I drank quite a bit last night and it was good. I enjoyed letting loose with no one to impress or listen to about what tastes good with what wine or how awesome a certain drink is. It's too bad I couldn't really watch the game too well. Oh well, Colts won, game was slow, commercials worse.

I made a lot of jokes in class today. This girl in there was sick and I mentioned her in my list of bad experiences in a group. She thought it was funny. I then listen the answer manual as a great input to my group experience. Laugh out loud funny. Plus the crazy girl talking about her group getting high. Man oh man, funny stuff.

I need a cemented internship for the summer. I though Lockheed Martin, but I'm having doubts about that one. Camden is a waste of a town, much like Black Springs, I suppose. Maybe Boeing in St. Louis or Raytheon in Dtown would be nice. Actually working in CO would be awesome!

Do you ever want to just start cussing and enjoy being a bad mo-fo? I want to sometimes. This guy cut me off in the weight room and I wanted to tell him to move out the way and call him an effer. I didn't but I wanted to, which is just as bad I'm told.

Sorry I seem to post when I'm mad, sometimes getting it all off my chest makes me feel better. It also lets you see the other side of me. The side that doesn't care about being a gentleman or care about your feelings or anyone else's. If I can keep that side on here and not out there, I'll be doing good I think. V-day is in nine days! hehehe. V-day.

BTW, I think you're wonderful. Seriously I do. Most days you make my day, others not so much but you make me want to be better always. I am a Christian because of the love you show me and me wanting to show it back to you helps me stay one. Thank you. Don't let things pile up, well I'm trying not to. Keep smiling, oh I am. Most good people aren't worth dying for, maybe a great person would be worth dying for. You're better than great. I'd take it in the back, face, chest, leg, arm for you. Even if you make me mad sometimes or make me cry at others.

Jumpbo Shrimp at Red Lobster

Yum...So this past week has been awesome! I got out of classes on Thursday and Friday. I finished up all my homework Thursday, so now I'm just sitting around doing PS2 or Xbox 360 or whatever. Seriously, I spent five hours at Joe's yesterday playing Gears of War. Such a fun game, with so much blood and cussing and craziness. Jason and I whipped some tail. TAKE THAT YOU DUMB BATS! I do feel like all this is going to catch up with me, but I honestly think I will keep doing nothing. WOOOO! Okay maybe I'll read or something.

I think the senior walk here is retarded. I can't believe we use that as our recruiting thing. Honestly, whoever designed those commercials=dumb.

Kudos to the crew last night. I don't give you guys enough credit. Had I not been busy, I might would've walked out and let all of you know you caught me. I did laugh about it all night. You guys, you guys are crazy!

I had so much fun in the ice last night. I did a 180 in the parking lot at V's and then fishtailed twice on the roads with my e-brake. So much fun!

Well I'm going to look at my communications book and watch the Hogs play some ball. I hope they can beat those Wildcats of Kentucky.